Ugly yet Beautiful || Jikook

Chapter 29

Jungkook P.O.V
"K-kookie... I-I'm s-sorry"

He's... sorry? What?
My whole body froze in one place, my hands gripping the waist of his jeans while my lips were ruffley pressed into his porcelain skin. I could feel his small hands stroking little circles into the back of my head and the top of my neck.

He was shaking. I could feel his little, chubby fingers shaking as he continued to mumbles and whisper odd words of comfort. I could hear the ragged breathing and feel the weight of his sighs while he continued to soothe me.

"I-I'm s-sorry kookie... I-it's o-okay now"

How was this okay? How was anything I was doing okay? He wasn't doing anything wrong, he had nothing to apologise for.

My hands clenched around his jeans tighter, I could feel the blood run from my fingers while I pulled myself into his chest. My ear pressed gently against his belly, I could feel his whole body tense under my touch while I slowly removed my hands from his jeans before gently pushing them under his back.

My breathing hitched as his heart beat rapidly increased in my ear, I felt sick to my stomach as my whole body burned at the realisation of what I was about to do, what I was about to force him to do. It was like every inch of me had suddenly gone weak, like my whole being had decided to give up right there and then. I let my whole weight fall on to the fragile boy under me, I let the sound of his hands running through my hair lul me into a odd state of bliss while my thoughts consumed what sanity I had left.

"K-ko ... jungkook?"

Jimin a voice was firmer than before, his hands stopping to lightly grip onto my hair while my body body became stiff and lifeless. I couldn't stop myself from trying to choke back the sob that was about to escape my mouth, the warm, salty tears already flowing down my cheeks and landing softly onto his flawless skin.

"K-kook-ie... I- I like it when y-you call me t-that"

The words were more something I wanted to think other than speak but I didn't stop myself as they began to fall from my lips, because they were true. I wasn't even sure if head heard me through the mumbling and odd cry I'd begun to make, but I suddenly felt so guilty and broken I wasn't even sure what I was meant to do in this situation.

What type of human was I? The worst type I suppose. I was letting this innocent and perfect human comfort me when I was the one causing him pain, I was the one ignoring his cries for help.

My body shifted as Jimin awkwardly shuffled himself further down the bed while trying to keep my pressed against him. I could feel the bed covers slowly being pulled up my back while Jimin rested my head in the crock of his neck and wrapped his arms around my waist.

And I let him.

I gave in, I let myself became like jelly around him, I was terrible person no matter how you looked at it and yet every time head hummed in my ear, every time his fingers grazed across my skin, every time his lightly rubbed his nose into the top of my head I felt so warm and safe.

"Kookie it is then"

I honestly had no idea what I was doing anymore, what was happening, why id even... and why he was being like this with me but I felt so calm for once, I didn't want it to end.

"J-Jimin... I-I'm sor"

I know this moment wasn't the right time at all and I shouldn't of been feeling these feelings now but when was it ever he right time for anything? My breathing hitched once again, my whole body suddenly began to burn and my tears had stopped within a second. My heart practically ripped from my chest as it thumped aggressively against my rib cage like a tiger trying to break out its in-closure. I couldn't stop my mouth from falling open a little and my eyes from widening as jimins soft, plump lips pressed a small but form kiss against my forehead.

"It's okay kookie"

What the hell just happened to me?