Ugly yet Beautiful || Jikook

Chapter 45

Jungkook P.O.V
"FUCK!!!"

The pain of the metal bin against the tip of my toes as I attempted to kick it only made me angrier. I was pathetic. I'd done nothing but stand there and watch at tae embraced him, do nothing but get angry at myself for not doing something.

The wind was colder than usual, the metal chains of the swing feeling like ice as a tighten my grip. There was things about me I hadn't told people, couldn't tell people, couldn't show people and i let myself do that with him. Yet here I was feeling sorry for myself after I acted like I did because someone else has took the chance to save him. What a joke.

'Buzz...buzz'

The vibration of my phone in my pocket dragged me from my head, my hands eagerly grasping for it as I ruffled around my pocket. I wanted to scream, to shout, but I couldn't, I just felt sick and alone as my eyes scanned the photo that had been sent to the group chat.

Jimins puffy eyes still standing out but the smile that was now on his face only made me feel sick as I continued to stare at the reason he was smiling. Taes tall legs were wrapped around his chest while his arms hung over his shoulder, his head resting on Jimins heads while a large smile was plastered on their faces.

I can't fix this now.

Jimin P.O.V
"Stop laughing at me"

I watched as taes eyebrows furrowed, a baby like sulk staring straight at me as I clenched my stomach in laughter.

"B-but you... hahaha completely missed the bed"

Tears were streaming at this point, but for a good reason as I watched him pick his lanky body up off the floor and back onto his bed. I'm not really sure what he was trying to do but all I know is one second he's up right the next he's on his arse.

"At least you're smiling now"

I choked a little as the words sunk in but he wasn't wrong, The pain in my chest didn't hurt as much, my eyes weren't as sore but I could still feel the lump that had wedged itself in my throat; suffocating me slowly.

"Jimin..."

The bed shifted under me, my body moving a little as  Taes slender fingers made their way to my hands, cupping them. I let my eyes life to his gaze, a small smile playing on his lips before my heart stopped momentarily.

His lips felt soft against my forehead, his bangs lightly brushing past me as he placed a small kiss. I don't really know what I was suppose to feel or do, but a small sting of pain choked on my heart before I felt the heat rise to my cheeks.

"W-w-what-t"

The words stumbled out my mouth, a mess of letters as I watched his face come to my level, his eyes looking anywhere but at me as he took his bottom lip between his teeth.

"I know now is the worst possible time, maybe I'm being selfish... I'm not asking for anything in return, I know you're in lov-ve with... j-just wanted to do that. I-I'm here for you type of thing"

He was right, now was the worse possible time but the selfish one was me. The fact all I could think of was jungkook throughout the whole thing made me the selfish one, the horrible one who was being told someone's feelings and completely rejecting them without thought. But the look he gave me as my face stayed perfectly emotionless was enough for my to understand.

"T-thank you"

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Tae P.O.V
Maybe I was pathetic, doing something so cheesy, so stupid just to try and get his attention. Maybe I knew that straight away he only saw this as an opportunity to hurt Jungkook back just as much but for those few seconds that his head hung a little and his cheeks were bright pink... I thought maybe that was at least real.

"You're an idiot"

My body jolted as I rolled myself around my bed frantically, what was I thinking doing something like that, then literally telling him to use me; am I dumb.

I couldn't help but let a sigh out as I found myself scurrying into my duvet, this was Jungkooks fault anyway... that's what I kept telling myself as I slowly let my heart fall for someone who was already taken.

'What the hell am I doing'

Author note: I have no idea what's going on anymore - I'm sorry 😭