Ugly yet Beautiful || Jikook

Chapter 46

Jimin P.O.V
It had been 5 days since then. 5 days since jungkook, 5 days since tae, 5 long and painful days but here I was. Standing awkwardly at the lockers with tae, my hands buried in my pockets, my hood up and my face down. I hated this feeling, like everyone was looking, everyone was watching as I secretly fell apart.

He had done so much for me in this short time, helped me the best he could without asking for anything in return. Maybe I was confused maybe this made it harder in the long run but for now, it felt like he was what I needed and I was what he needed. At least just a little.

"Are you even listening"

My body jolted a little, the comfort of my hood disappearing as the force of Taes body hitting of the locker cm away from me made it to leave the soft strands of my hair; exposed.

My heart skipped a beat momentarily as my eyes adjusted. Taes body was leaning forward, his hand hanging over my head as it rested against the locker, while his face was barley a few inches away.

It wasn't that I didn't like this, it wasn't that I was ungrateful of taes feelings, or that I didn't appreciate everything he'd done. Things like this made my hands sweaty, my face flush and my mind go blank a little but it wasn't the same... I didn't hate it though. I'm a bad person.

"I-I.. erm"

My face got hotter as I heard his soft mocking giggle, his body inched that little bit closer.

"What did I say then"

My body froze as out the corner of my eye I saw jungkooks face, his hair bouncing as he stepped, a large smile on his face while Jhope shouldered him in our direction. A lump formed in my throat as I attempted to swallow, my left hand instantly going to taes collar as I pulled him towards me harshly.

I could feel his breath fan off my lips, his forehead pulled into mine as our noses grazed off each other. His eyes were big, his breathing slightly jagged as I watched his eyes flutter shut and back open.

"Don't try and act cocky why you're like this from me"

My voice had no expression as I subconsciously glanced to the side, jungkooks face no longer in sight.

I felt taes breathing hitch, his face turning the same colour mine was moments before while his eyes were like doe.

"Cute"

I found myself giggling as I let him go, his body jolting up before he made a very obvious coughing sound.

I'm sorry.

(16 days later)

Jungkook P.O.V
The days were turning into a blur as I slowly found myself caring less about things and people. It had been nearly 3 weeks now. My phone blowing up with pictures of them together, all of them. My days turning into never ending nightmares, losing purpose in a lot of things.

But he seemed happy.

They'd gone to the cinema, dinner, bowling with everyone, tae had even made them a joint twitter account.

I'd made the right decision.

At least that's what I was trying to tell myself anyway, telling myself the pain was getting less and less harder to bare every day, telling myself that this is how it should be. But It was like I couldn't breathe, like the bathroom stall walls were closing in on me by the second. The voices in my head screaming louder than ever as I let my body slump to the floor.

As I gasped for breathe I felt my cheeks dampen, a soft crying dying to exit my mouth as I clenched my hair in my hands. My body rocking slightly as I frantically begged myself to stop, stop this pain that felt like daggers.

10 minuets earlier

"What do you want to talk to me about?"

Jimins voice was like a blade cutting air, his harsh tone loud and clear. I just watched as he took one last drag of his cigarette before flicking it off the edge of the roof. His hair was now black and a little shorter than before, his new clothes fitting him perfectly, (A leather jacket, white shirt, black skinny's and of course docks ).

I wanted to say something, anything, I mean I was the one that asked him to come here. But my voice was failing me, the words I'd rehearsed in my head vanishing in a second.

"Y-you look well"

My body stiffened as his head turned slightly, the hollow stare in his gaze causing a shiver to run down my spine.

"I look well?"

His head cocked to the side, a smile playing on his lips as he took a few steps towards me.

"I guess I have you to thank for that"

My body stumbles a little on the uneven flooring as Jimin glare cut through me. His hands were shoved into his pocket, his head Lully a little as the visible anger flooded his face.

"I hate you"

I don't know what hurt more, the sudden feeling of his knuckles against my cheek, the hard ground under me as I landed or his words that just kept echoing around my head.

"I fucking hate you"

The lump in my throat grew, the pain in my chest exploding as I watched his hand I clench, his face warping as tears began to stream down his checks. I wanted to do something, anything but his words cut me off.

"I-I let you I-in! I trusted you! And you what? Fucking used me for some sick twisted joke?"

He spat each letter of every word, his eyes going completely emotionless as tears fell down his cheek. I wanted to get up and hug him, reach for him but the horrifying look on his face had me frozen.

"I- I and tae he's he's trying so hard, he makes m-me feel... and I don't know. I-I jusg h-hate you.

Each sniffle and hiccup only made my heart ache more as he tried to express himself and all I could do was lay there and watch.

"I wish I'd never met you"

Then he was gone.