Ugly yet Beautiful || Jikook

Chapter 31

Jimins P.O.V
"I-I'm S-so"

"Don't"

I wasn't meant to snap as jungkooks quiet and fragile voice filled my ears. I wasn't meant to sound so rude and stubborn as I instantly turned to face the door where tae just left. But I was completely confused.

One second jungkooks was trying too... then he stopped and tae just... and I decided to stick up and protect him? What the hell was wrong with me?

Maybe it was the sound of his voice that made me protect him, maybe it was the look he gave me just before he fell into a deep sleep that had my heart beating so fast and my mind cloudy.

Either way, the second tae even began to question, the second I thought he really knew what was happening, I couldn't help but protect him, I couldn't help but lie to tae.

"J-jiminie"

I was completely took of guard as two large arms wrapped around my waist, pulling me back suddenly till my body fell into something warm. Being dragged from your own thoughts suddenly would make anyone jump, but the fact my back was nuzzled into the curvature of his chest and  his head was snuggled into the crock of my neck, nearly had me jumping out my skin.

"J-Jung"

"I'm sorry"

The words were barley audible as they reached my ears, his long strands of hair dangling Infront of his eyes and nose hanging low enough to tickle against my collar bone.

I couldn't stop myself from relaxing into his chest, I couldn't bring myself to pull away as his hands clenched even tighter around my belly and not one part of me thought about stopping any of this the second I felt my collar bone and shoulders becoming slightly wet.

"I-I'm s-so sssoorrry"

His head buried even deeper; if that was possible, as small tears began to drip at a steady pace onto my body, his hands were shaking slightly as he continued to mumble his apologise over and over again while for the first time in a very long time I think I understood my feeling; just a little.

"It's okay kookie, I forgive you"

My heart ached a little, no, a lot. I felt sick and weird all of a sudden as I listen to who I thought was someone that could never cry, ball their eyes out. So maybe I didn't understand my feelings completely, maybe I was still hoping I hated him and that every time my heart fluttered it was an accident. But what I did know was, I hated this, I hated how his voice sounded when he couldn't hold back any longer, I hated how his body seemed smaller and his hands shacked as he held me. I hated it all.

I never wanted to see him hurt again.

Jungkook P.O.V
For the first time, in a very long time I woke up with a mix of feeling, scared, anxious and excited all at the same time.

I didn't want to think about yesterday. Not one bit. But how could I not as I awkwardly stared at myself in the mirror, as I watched myself try to force a smile on my face like I did every day.

Suddenly my heart began to beat a little faster and ache all at the same time as the image of jimin cuddled into my chest asleep came flying into my head. 

But why did I suddenly feel all warm inside but sad at the time? He wasn't important to me, he wasn't anything but a bet, that's right. Nothing but a 'shag', a play toy. Right that was it. Nothing else.

But why couldn't I get my heart to calm down even a little!?