This Is The End (PUBLISHING)

Chapter 04

Letter 04

Dear Hide

I saw Anna again today, she was getting ice cream at our ice cream shop.

I call it ours, even though we don't own it, because it was our new place. I tried that ice cream place for the first time with you, and I loved it. I had always had good memories there, and right now, all my memories feel like they're going away.

My memories of you.

One that's particually sticking out to me is the day your mother visited our home. You were over our house that day, you had a black eye, and you were only 12 years old.

She had stomped into our house and politely screamed for you. I remember seeing your eyes widen, your skin turn white as a ghost, and your body begin to shake. I could hear your breath in those moments, and I could see your heart beating so fast.

I remember my mother and father ended up standing up to your mother that day, yet she still dragged you out of the house. My parents couldn't hold her back, she was your mother, you were her son, she had all right to take you home if she wanted to. I remmeber seeing your face as you were dragged out, my mother beginning to crying, and my father holding me back from running after you.

I wish I did though, I wish I ran after that woman and broke you from her grasp. I wish I had helped you, I wish I was there for you!

I sometimes wonder if that was the day you began to have suicidal thoughts..Sometimes I wonder what smile was real, what one was fake. I want to know what really happened, if you told me everything she said to you, if you told me everything that she yelled to your father.

Sometimes I wonder

If I had done something differently, maybe you'd still be here...

Chapter 04- And Her Name Is Maya

I had realized, once I woke up and checked my text between Hide and I, that I sent him 4 text yesterday. All were delivered, none were read.

His phone was most likely turned off, I'm sure his mother couldn't bare to read any text messages from his friends.

Hide ended up actually having a lot of friends, even though he was a shy, quiet boy. He found himself to fit in with a group of "misfits" here at our school. Those were the kids with dyed hair, the crossdressers, and the really, really smart kids.

I had met his group of friends on more than one occasion, and every time, they were the kindest people you'd ever met. That group of people, they were the most accepting group that I had ever met!

I can see why hide liked them so much. That group of people let him be himself.

Something that all the popular kids never let anyone do...

I had never had that feeling of a true laugh, it was all faked around my friends. All those smiles from them were really just covering up some of the darkest stuff I thought the world could hold. One guy was addicted to drugs, one had an abusive sister, one was struggling with being transgender.

I never thought that someone could be dealing with the world against them.

These people had nothing on Hide. He was a smiley guy, shy, but had quite the smile. He had fallen victim to the smile that everyone used here. His shined the brightest...

I put on my clothes and stared at myself in the mirror.

I was falling so low, dressing in my grey sweatpants and a faded tee shirt. I looked like I was falling apart, like my whole world was breaking down right in front of me. Like everything was falling and I couldn't fix it.