Mrs Darcy (Complete)

Chapter 33

It had been only a few months since my beloved Eve had died and I felt as though my heart had hardened. I cut off access to myself from our families and enrolled into the army. The zombie wars in London were getting out of hand so I was stationed there for some weeks to recover my mind and spirit after the loss of my wife. Whilst there I put everything into disposing the killer of my wife, but the more I tried to shove my feelings of anger into killing those creatures, the more I felt as though I was hurting her. Eve once told me that she would be with me even if I couldn't see her but it was getting harder and harder to imagine her with me in the wars.

After a long day on the battlefield, I had been relieved of century duty and been ordered into my tent to rest as the man who relieved me said the captains thought I was exhausting myself. As I laid myself down to sleep that night inside my tent with the sounds of wind and rain bustling in the outside world beyond the thin tent walls. Suddenly a gust of wind raced up my spine, as though causing it to straighten and my eyes opened. I gasped as I saw Eve standing in my tent, smiling down at me in the beautiful pale green dress we buried her in, and her hair was falling down her body like it usually would. I thought I was dreaming as I sat up and rubbed my tired eyes, disbelieving that she was really there. I heard her speak to me suddenly, as my mouth remained a gape.

"Hello Fitz" Eve said, her beautiful pale face smiling down at me.

I stood up from my uncomfortable single bed cot and stood in front of the ghost of my wife. "Eve? How are you here?" I asked her, anxious to know if I could touch her as I reached my hand out to touch her waist, but my hand went straight through her and my heart sank, but I was so happy that I could see her. and even happier knowing that I couldn't see that terrible gunshot wound in the side of her head that was a contender for her death, as well as the bites on her ankle and the deep scratches on her back.

I heard her breath and saw her chest rise and fall as she sighed in front of me, as she also watched my hand go straight through her perfect porcelain skin. "I never left you, Fitz. You just didn't really want to see me" She replied and I smiled wider than I had for weeks. "Fitz, I'm so proud of you, you must know that. But you must remember who you are, Fitzwilliam Darcy. You have the world because you got the love in your hands. You're still my chosen one and one day you'll understand that our daughter needs you. She needs her father's love because she is all you have now" She told me as though slapping me in the face and giving me a reality check. 

"Come on, Eve. I cannot go back to that house. Everything there reminds me of you. Even Rose reminds me of you so much that I can barely be around her so long before you come into my mind and I must remove myself from the situation" I told Eve, and he face fell as she thought of something, but then a spark of hope became her face. 

"Then move to Pemberley House permanently. Move your meetings there for real instead of using our room as a substitute. Send Rose to school in Lambton" Eve replied with solutions. I took a seat on the edge of my cot and put my head in my hands. "If not, I know Cedric, Annabelle and my mother are thinking about crossing the Atlantic to America so ask them to take our daughter with them" Eve continued, and I thought to myself that that one wasn't such a bad idea. "At least then she'd be getting a mother's love but--" 

I cut her off. "But I'd barely see her again" I said. 

"Yes" Eve spoke and there was a moment of silence between the two of us. She knelt down in front of me and went to lift my head up, but her fingers went right through me as I lifted my head up myself wit her familiar movements. "Look, Fitz, I don't want you to be miserable all your life so I want you to find another woman for yourself or at least a hobby so you don't completely lose your head. Take up fencing for all I care, but know that I will always love you, Mr Darcy" 

Then she disappeared without a trace and I was alone once again.