I feel so tired and hopeless. Like, you are just obliged to live; you exist without purpose.
How I wish life would be easy, pero mayroon bang madali ngayon sa mundo? I am so tired and I can't find a way to solve any of my issues.
I live in a box with 4 dark corners, I am jailed of loneliness and I want to get out of these emotions.
My emotions are more alive than my own self. They are breathing and eating. I am the prey of my own emotions, they are eating me.
I am lost but I still keep looking for the right road and it seems God is giving me a hard time to find it...
"You are so hard to handle," I whispered. Pertaining to life. I cut my pulse one more time. I can see my pulse continuously bleeding. I smiled. This is way better. I can feel the pain physically. I would like it more instead of having my emotions ripped.
I am hurt, sad and maybe angry, too..
..but I don't know what exactly the reason why I am angry nor sad. Maybe because of my family? Friends? Acquaintances? Or maybe because of myself. I don't really know. All I know is I am alone. I can't find someone who will be my company in times of distress.
I closed my eyes. Waiting for me to fall asleep. I know I wouldn't die. The cuts are not deep enough to make me lifeless. I just want to hurt myself and feel the pain, physically..
I sometimes wish to be a battery operated person. Sana may ganon para kapag drained kana at wala ka ng energy to do things pwede kang magcharge.
Pwede ka ulit sumigla at higit sa lahat, you can choose if you'll be ON to operate and continue life or just put it to OFF mode and care nothing.
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Battery of Life
Romance[SPG] Depressed people deserve to be loved too. This is a story of a girl suffering from clinical depression but find ways to help herself get better by attending clinical intervention and the help of other people who can understand her. This is a...
