Darkness Within

A/N

So.... I just realised.... I have writer's block.....I may not update for a while....
Also my dad killed my dog...so I'm a little sad, no that's an understatement.... I'm litterly laying in my bed crying as I write this. The thing is no one told me...I found out by seeing his food still in his bowl outside and him not waiting for me after school. You're all probably thinking "oh he could be doing something else" but he always comes, every damn time. Now I just want to barf...and yell and scream....
I'm pissed and sad....not a good combination also doesn't help that I'm getting depressed....
The day I wrote this is Jan.26, 2018, 4:44 pm
I hate my life....and am trying and struggling not to commit suicide...but I won't....not yet anyway....
It's winter so it hard to bury the body of my baby boy I get it, but I don't want to some animal coming and eating him.... Dad won't tell me where his body is..... I'm still crying..... I hate my dad so much right now.
He said I can get a fish, he said I could before my baby's death.... So now I'm naming my fish after my baby.
Emanuel was a great pryneese cross, 1 year. We didn't even have him a year. Now every Jan.25 I'm going to mourn . My mother.s dog died on wedsdag a day before. This week is so horrible!!!!
My fish will be white, I'm naming him Emanuel Bubbles.
May my baby rest in peace, and always play in a meadow. Happy and loved. ♥♥♥♥♥😞😞😞😞😞😢😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 He will be rembered a d cherished until my death and then in my after life!!!!
I'm sorry you didn't need to here about my sad deppessing week. 😭 Sorry.