Searching for my Identity

10. Chapter Serious Conversations

My dearest readers :) I'm so glad that I've got so many fans who are following my story, I'm really grateful for your support. This chapter was for me one of the most important parts since I started this story. I want to thank so many people like @LindaProsser1 thanks for editing and @ClaudiaCleland thanks for believing in me. It helps so much and please leave a comment after reading, I'm so excited about your opinions :) Now let's start with this chapter ;-) have fun at reading

They drove for a few hours before they arrived their home in Martha's Vineyard. After putting their luggage away Logan asked, "Ace would you like to take a walk on the beach?"

"That's a good idea, but I would like to take a nice bath before we head to the beach. Do you want to join me? " Rory asked, putting her arms around her husband's neck and looking deeply into his intense chocolate brown eyes

"I thought you would never ask me," he mumbled and started to kiss her tenderly. Fifteen minutes later, they were both lying in the large bathtub. Logan had his arms around Rory's bare torso and placed soft kisses on her wet shoulders.

"I'm glad that we took a few days to come here," sighed Rory and closed her eyes for a moment, enjoying the newly won intimacy between her and Logan.

"So am I, more than you can imagine, Ace. I think we should talk about everything that's been happening in the last few years. The problems we have had. I love you, and I don't want to lose you, Ace," Logan said as he was drawing gentle circles with his fingers on her skin.

"I agree, Logan. The last few years haven't been easy for us but we will get through it together, and I love you, my Master and Commander."

Logan's lips tilted up with a happy grin. For years his Ace didn't mention this name. Logan was thrilled to hear her say the nickname; they had used it so many years ago. He and Rory have been together for nineteen years, and they were married for fifteen of those years. Their marriage had not been easy, and they had a lot of bumps in that road.

But they were meant for each other, and that's why it was so important to talk to each other. The unmentioned conversations had to be addressed.

Specifically about Norah. No one was to blame for Norah's kidnapping. Even if the two of them believed it, and they hardly talked about the taboo topic. It hurt them so much.

"Yeah, Ace I want to work through our problems no matter how difficult it is. I want to look forward to having a better future for you and our children."

This was a difficult subject for Rory to talk about and she was relieved that her husband brought it up.

"That's good to know Logan.."

An hour later, they were sitting on the beach looking out at sea. The breeze was cool, but it didn't bother Rory and Logan.

"Rory do you want to talk about Norah? I know how difficult it is for you to talk about her. But I want to help you, please don't shut me out of your feelings as you did over the years. I realize that you never intended to hurt me, but I have every need to know exactly how you feel. If we don't share our feelings, then I can't help you. Rory. I miss you, and I'm at the edge of madness. Please let me help you. I'm here for you. I love you.." Logan held her in his arms and tears pooled in his eyes.

Logan took her face into his hands and searched for the emotions in her eyes that she was feeling at that moment.

Time stood still for Rory, while her husband was staring intensely into her eyes. She knew that she couldn't hide her feelings from Logan anymore. Rory closed her eyes for a brief moment and took a deep breath.

Come on Rory you can do it, Do it for you and Logan, she tried to encourage herself. He needs to know how you're feeling.

Her inner voice was motivating her, so she spoke,"I don't have a clue where I should start. There are many emotions in my mind. I'm scared and desperate, Logan. After Norah's kidnapping, I began to isolate myself from any pain. I'm aware that you're suffering too.