Searching for my Identity

19. Chapter Sad Eyes

First of all, I'm sorry it took me so long for this chapter, but now it goes on and I hope you're all still with me. And please leave some feedback after reading the chapter. I'm looking forward to reading some of your comments soon. Furthermore, I would like to thank my beta reader @LindaProsser1 that she never loses hope in me. Thanks for that. While you're reading this chapter I would recommend you to listen to the song from Bruce Springsteen Sad Eyes https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PjLTGfG14Y8

Chapter 20 Sad Eyes

As soon Nathalie arrived at the gazebo she gave Frank, her dad's driver a call to pick her up. Normally she would call her parents to pick her up, but right now she couldn't deal with them. As soon as she had gotten a message from Frank that he was on his way, she sat on the steps of the gazebo.

Twenty minutes later Frank arrived, and Nathalie got into the car and took a seat on the back seat.

Leaning her head on the window, she sat quietly crying, listening to the music and wishing that her twin sister was alive, home waiting for her so they could talk and share secrets. Instead, she was on her way home and didn't know how she would react towards her parents.

As she tried to understand the information that she was told she found herself listening to the music of Bruce Springsteen and founded it comforting. Especially her favorite song Sad Eyes, which was playing on her iPhone. For a brief moment, the young girl closed her eyes and listened to the singer's words.

Every day here you come walking
I hold my tongue; I don't do much talking
You say you're happy and you're doin' fine
Well go ahead, baby, I got plenty of time
Because sad eyes
Because sad eyes never lie

Nathalie was like her father, always hiding her true feelings. She didn't like it when strangers were looking at her or ask if she was okay. Like her father, Nathalie only showed her vulnerability to a few people, her little sister Grace, her parents, her grandparents and of course her best friend, Liam. As she continued listening to the music, she let an annoyed sigh.

Well for a while I've been watching you steady
Ain't gonna move 'til you're good and ready
You show up, and then you shy away
But I know pretty soon you'll be walkin' this way
Because sad eyes never lie
Because sad eyes never lie

Nathalie opened her eyes, stared thoughtlessly out of the window and tried to ignore the thoughts that were spinning in her head like a carousel.

But it wasn't that easy; her thoughts kept on returning to Norah, her twin sister. She wished that they had time to grow up together. Her tears slowly leaked from her eyes wondering if she would have been as found of candy as she was. Would they both have shared the Gilmores love of movies, coffee, books, and music especially Bruce Springsteen? Would she look like her or like her father and be athletic like he was?

Baby don't you know I don't care
Don't you know that I've been there
Well if something in the air feels a little unkind
Don't worry darling; it'll slip your mind
I know you think you'd never be mine
Well that's okay, baby, I don't mind
That shy smile's sweet, that's a fact
Go ahead, I don't mind the act

But most of all Nathalie wondered what happened to her sister Norah? Did she die at birth, or after an illness? Was that why her parents had never said a word about her? She had so many questions running through her mind and hoping when she arrived home her parents would sit down and give her the answers when she came back home.