Miyaka's Fire

Chapter 13

A/N 

Censored. Please be advised. =)

“It’s okay, babe. Hindi naman ako nagmamadali.” sabi niya. Lumuluha pa rin siya. Sa hindi malamang dahilan nasasaktan siya sa kwento nito. Hindi man nito direktang sabihin pero alam niya na ito ang bata sa kwento nito. The story gave sense to everything. It gave sense to his hesitation about love and to his reservation about his personal life. Umayos siya ng upo at pinahid ang luha. Pagkatapos ay ngumiti. She caught him staring at her. As if memorizing her every actions. Napangiti rin siya. Pagkatapos ay kinindatan ito. Natawa naman ito. Hindi niya alam kung anong nangyayari. They seem to have an inside joke that only them knows. Natawa na rin siya. Tumayo siya at inabot ang kanang kamay dito.

“Babe, mamahalin kita hanggang sa mawala ang lahat ng sakit diyan sa puso mo.” Inabot nito ang kamay siya at bigla siyang hinala palapit dito. Biglang siyang napasigaw at napaupo sa kandungan nito.

“Don’t hope too much, Babe. Just tell me you’ll stay and that is more than enough for me.” Gusto niyang malungkot. Nawala na ba talaga nang tuluyan ang tiwala nito sa pagmamahal? He touched her cheeks.

“Kahit sabihin ko sayo na my love for you is so big it’s enough for the two of us?” It sounded like a joke pero totoo ang sinasabi niya. Mahal niya ito at pwede pa iyong mas lumalim. Tumawa ito. He held her face with his both hands and pulled her face closer to him. This time their face inches apart from each other. His gray eyes were staring deep at her. Then he grinned. He looked playful not wanting to take their conversation seriously. Then parang flashbulb sa utak niya… she sudenly remembered the reason why she stayed for the night. Biglang parang uminit ang pakiramdam niya. She also felt herself blush.

“Hindi ba yun enough?” tanong pa ulit niya. She didn’t want to let go of the opportunity that he is finally opening himself up to her. His thumb now tracing the outline of her face. He was still staring at her and she can’t help herself but stare as well. His eyes went a shade darker when his gaze dropped to her partly opened mouth. Siya ang napalunok sa nangyayari sa kanila. Kailangan yatang lakasan ang aircon sa lugar na ito?

“Miya, I promise to be faithful, to respect you, to give you a good life but please don’t hope too much about love. Love destroys people. It’s a fickle feeling that often confuses people. It’s a weak emotion. A relationship can happen without love. Trust me, were better off without love.” Then he kissed her forehead. Napapikit naman siya. Gusto niyang mapabuntong hininga. Can they really survive without love? Isn’t respect and being faithful part of love? She him kissed her right eye then went on her left eye. Bumaba iyon sa tungki ng ilong niya, then lower to the corner of her lips. Then he pulled away. Napadilat siya.

“Are you scared of where this relationship with lead us, Miya?” tanong nito. Hinawakan niya ang mukha nito, “Yes. I’m afraid that someday I’d realize that my love for you is not enough for the both of us.” 

Napatitig naman ito sa kaniya.

“Do you trust me?” he asked. Do I? she asked herself as well. “Yes.” she found herself answering back because, really, she trusts him. “Then trust me not to hurt you. As long as I live, babe, I will not anyone hurt you.”

Napangiti naman siya sa sinabi nito.

“Thank you.” she managed to say.

For now it should be enough, they still have a lot of things to discover about themselves and their relationship has still a lot of growing up to do but his promise for now should be enough. Love will happen eventually. She just have to believe.

“Ready for the main course?” biglang pilyong tanong nito. Parang tanga na namula naman siya bigla sabay hampas dito. Napasigaw ulit siya nang bigla siya nitong ihiga sa sofa. “I’ve been waiting for this.” he whispered. At pumaibabaw sa kaniya. Napakagat labi siya. His gaze dropped on her lips. “You should stop doing that. Or else you won’t get the foreplay that you would need.”