I sighed at the thought of Kingsley being able to win me over so easily like that, the younger me seemed so alien to me these days, I felt like we were two totally different people.
When you love someone, proper deep love, it doesn't matter what the person does you still find you self weak at the knees when they tell you they love you, you still crumble when you hear them cry, you believe their words not because you want too but because you have too, its the only way you think you will survive.
Drying my self off I walked into to front room and looked at the time, it was after 2 in the afternoon where the hell was kingsley. I got dressed into some black joggers, black jumper and put on my slides then walked out the flat on a mission to find Kingsley.
I ended up walking all the way to liams house and walked straight in no key, Liam was one of those people that always had to have people around his house, so the door is always open.
Noticing how quiet His house was I walked into the front room, of course nobody was there but I didn't trust Liam so I had to check for my own sake.
"hello..... LIAM!!" I shouted thinking no one would answer.
"YO!" I nearly jumped out of my skin, Liam had scared me half to death!. I turned around and he was standing by the door with shopping bags, his son, kingsley and Reece (kingsleys brother) standing close behind him. I looked at kingsley but he didn't look at me he kept avoiding eye contact like I had done him something, his behaviour was so out of character it made absolutely no sense to me!.
"ay bitch grab a bag " Liam said drawing my attention away from Kingsley.
looking liam up and down I had to ask him if he was mad in the head to ever speak to me like that, he could only kiss his teeth after me as he walked by grumbling to Kingsley.
" Tell your girl to watch her mouth man!" To which Kingsley told him straight he's not telling me nothing, in the most serious tone, Liam instantly backed off choosing to usher his son into the kitchen to help unpack. He pushed past me and carried the bags into the kitchen.
Kingsley and Rayon went into the front room so I followed deliberately sitting down next to Kingsley, he moved away from me as soon as my arse hit the sofa, That swift action alone had me looking at him like what the fuck! Was I that repulsive?.
"kingsley please can we talk.." I begged him infrint of his brother I really didn't care at this point.
"nah man go home Nicole what you doing?!" He raged visibly irritated by me.
"NO!, why are you being like this for I ju....."
"I SAID GO FUCKING HOME!!!" Kingsley literally bellowed at me gripping the arm of the chair, I was frightened but angered more then anything.
The way he shouted at me he had never ever done that before, the whole house rattled under me if felt like, I sat there staring at him in shock, but in honesty I was too scared to move. kingsley looked so angry I truly didn't understand why, what did I do? The more I thought about it the angrier I got until I couldn't contain myself.
"DON'T YOU DARE EVER FUCKING SHOUT AT ME KINGSLEY! I HAVENT DONE ANY THING YOU PRICK-" Kingsley stood up now marching over to me we stood in Liams living room screaming at each other with Rayon as the spectator.
"BLOOD ARE YOU FUCKING DUMB DON'T FUCKING EVER RAISE YOUR VOICE AT MAN! MATTER OF FACT YOU FUCKIN DO AS I SAY, GO HOME!" He pointed in my face talking real nasty like he was ready to fight me.
"Do as you say do as you fucking say have you lost your fucking mind Kingsley! HAVE YOU!" And before I could actually stop myself I had punched him with all my might right in his jaw, Rayon gasped in complete shock which seemed to bring me back to earth, Now I really wish I never as Kingsley stood holding his jaw.
I tried to come out that house as quick as I could as soon as in cane to my senses but by the time I got to the hall I was too late kingsley had already caught ahold of me, my heart thudded against my rib cage as he held on to my arm, really tight.
Looking into my eyes Kingsley didn't have to say a thing, I knew what was coming my way.
"Nah nah wait for me b we're definitely going home now" he told me coldly, I was so scared that I started to cry on the spot hoping he would forgive me. Kingsley instead decided to actually drag me all the way back to the flat we shared. His grip on my arm was so tight my hand had turned blue and im black so that's saying some thing!.. As soon as Kingsley opened the flat door he let go of my arm pushing me to the floor he slammed the door.
I looked up still crying and his face was red with anger I was shaking with fear, this man that stood above me was not the Kingsley I remember, but maybe I wasn't the Nicole he remembered, she would never have put her hands on Kingsley not ever!.
"Punch me in the face you know in my fucking face-ARE YOU FUCKING SICK IN THE HEAD NICOLE ARE YOU?!...... YOU MUST FUCKING BE!!" He growled at me bearing his teeth spit flying everywhere, suddenly he dragged me up by my hair all the way down the hall way into are bed room while I kicked and screamed for him to stop. Kicking our en-suite bathroom door open, he grabbed me up on to my knees and pushed my head down into the toilet bowl.
I was screaming for him to stop but he didn't care he pushed my head down and flushed the chain over and over again then he finally stopped, dragging me out I fell back on the floor breathing heavy trying to catch my breath back while crying so hard my heart had started to hurt. I looked up to see Kingsley sat on the edge of the bath just looking at me, his eyes were so cold my Kingsley wasn't inside them, looking down I noticed his fists were clenched. I started to panic then real fear took over as I believed this man was about to kill me.
"No no no please I'm so sorry I'm so sorry I will never hit you about please Kingsley please!" I begged through my tears trying to bring him back but it was too late, he had already jumped up and swung his first blow to my face while screaming over me.
"YOU FUCKING BITCH!" He swung again and then lifted me off the floor shaking me by my shoulders.
"WHY COULDN'T YOU JUST FUCK OFF, WHY DO YOU MAKE ME DO THIS, I LOVE YOU BUT YOU MAKE ME DO IT YOU!!....."he was crying by this point not even able to shake me anymore, he pushed me away and I fell back onto the floor, choosing to curl in a ball and block out Kingsleys cry's of anguish, I focused on my own pain that he had just inflicted upon me.
