Blood Diamonds

I'm Sorry

Blood Diamonds: Chapter 34

~Joel P.O.V.~

Now I was going to go to 3rd period but... I'd much rather spend time with my son.

I snuck off- well I shouldn't say snuck off because I literally just walked off, leaving behind all my fucks I should give about school.

***

I gently knocked on the door and poked my head in.

"Hey." Charnae said with a smile as she set her phone down.

"Hey, so where's the lil' stud?" He's automatically a stud, thug, and G just because of the fact he's my son. Like it's just by default.

"The nurse took him to give him a bath. I wanted to do it but she said she really wanted to, so I let her."

"Damn, I would have been down to give him a bath too." I put my keys in my pocket and took a seat on the side of the bed since she scooted over for me. "How do you feel knowing we're officially a family? Regardless of the fact that we aren't in a relationship." I asked.

"I think we're still a little young but I like the fact we're now a family." She rested her head against my shoulder. "How do you feel knowing you have a son now?"

"I feel pretty fucking good actually. I agree with the whole young thing but we're just shy of 18 so it's not like we were 14 or 15 and having a child." If I was 14 or 15, I would probably have been scared shitless.

"True. How would you have felt if Travie was the father?"

"I'm not about to bash him or nothin' 'cause I honestly feel like he would have stepped up. Maybe not right away but after the reality of it hit him. He is a good kid n' all but I would have been a little sad. I would still love the lil' boy like my own son and helped out if you needed the help." I had a good feeling he was mine. There was a certain connection I felt whenever I held him.

"I agree."

"How are you gonna tell him?" I asked. If I was her, I'd just tell him straight up. No sugar coating or finding some creative way to dance around it, just point blank, tell him.

"I'm not sure yet. I'm kinda scared to tell him because I don't know how he'll react or anything."

"He won't do anything to you. He might do shit to me but that's just a given." I said as I rolled my eyes.

"I'll tell him the next time I see him. I'd rather tell him in person."

"That's understandable. I forgot to ask, how did Marquez react when he saw his Nephew?"

"He started crying. Like straight up and it was the funniest thing ever." She said with a small laugh.

"Be nice. Children make guys cry. Especially when they're as adorable as our son."

"Guess what his name is." She already named him?

"I don't know. What?"

"Trell." Oh my God.

"So he's Trell the fourth?" She nodded her head. I didn't say another word, I just reached down and kissed her. She wrapped her arms around my neck as our kiss became passionate. "You don't understand how much happier that made me." I said after we managed to pull away. "He needs a middle name that we can call him by. Trell is only reserved for my Grandpa, which is why my Dad and I go by different names."

"You can choose his middle name." She said as she kissed my cheek.

"This gon' take time because he needs a bomb ass name. Not like how I got Joel." I said with a laugh.