Before The Dawn

Thirteen - The Plan

Hyena's POV

I opened my eyes slowly, and the first thing that I noticed is that everything surrounding me was white.

Am I dead? Is this really how it feels to be dead? Where are my parents? If I am dead, please let me be with them.

I was trying to get up when I noticed there were still some IV tubes connected to my body. I looked around, and I was a bit disappointed when I realized that I was still in a hospital room. I felt bad because I thought I was already dead.

What happened? I was supposed to be dead by now, right? I jumped off the hospital building last night, and I am sure of what I did.

I was so confused. I couldn't do anything else but cry my heart out. I was in that state when I saw a doctor enter my room. He went near my bed, and then he looked at me and smiled.

"It's nice to see that you are finally awake now," he said. "By the way, I am Kim Dr. Heechul. You can either call me Dr. Kim, or Dr. Heechul. I am the doctor who is assigned to monitor your condition."

I just looked at him with a confused expression. I wanted to ask him about so many things, but I can't seem to find my voice for I feel ashamed because of the things that I did.

"You may be wondering what you are doing here," he said.

He must have sensed my confusion. I just nodded my head at him.

"Let's see. Where should I start?" he started. "Well, I know you can still remember the little incident that happened early this morning, right?!" I looked at him and nodded my head again.

"Let's start from there." he continued. "First, you tried jumping off this building. Young lady, I am actually really mad with what you did," he said.

I could sense that he seems to be trying his best not to be angry at me. "I really want to scold you right now. I am a bit upset because as a doctor, I can't understand why so people want to end their lives, while here I am trying my best to save their lives." he sighed.

I really wanted to cry in front of him right now. I felt so bad because of what I did. I couldn't look straight into his eyes. I just buried my face in my hands. "Hyena, look at me," he said as he removed my hands from my face. I finally had the courage to look at him, but I was a bit confused when I saw his expression soften. "Hyena, as a doctor I really want to be angry with what you did; but as a human being, I want you to know that do understand your reason behind it. I know that you are in pain right now because of what happened with your parents."

As he mentioned my parents, tears automatically filled my eyes. I couldn't help but cry in front of him. I remembered how happy their faces were, the last time that we were together, and also I could still vividly remember the time when I heard them say, I LOVE YOU to me.

"My dear, I am really sorry for your loss," he said as he tapped my shoulders. "Please understand that taking away your life is not a wise thing to do. Killing yourself is not the answer. Haven't you even thought of how your parents would feel about what you did? They would surely be devastated because they know that they were hurting you. I know that if they could see you right now, they would somehow feel bad because they felt that they failed you. They don't want you to give up. Didn't you know that they tried their best to save you so that you could live?" he continued.

I couldn't say anything so I just looked at him with confusion.

"How did I know?" he asked.

I nodded my head as I motioned him to continue talking. "Well, when the paramedics saw you, your parents' bodies were covering yours. Their bodies served as your shield, and that's why it was their bodies that absorbed most of the truck's impact. If it weren't for them, you were already gone by now."