2015
Trevor sat across the table smiling at Damita. She had been acting weird all night.
"What's wrong, you don't like your food?"Trevor placed his hand on her thigh.
"No it's good, I'm just thinking."Damita plastered a smile on her face.
"About?"Trevor asked.
"Honestly, I'd rather not talk about it. I'm ready to go home."Damita sighed and pushed her plate away from.
"Does it have anything to do with what I asked you yesterday does it? I apologized?"Trevor grabbed her hand.
"Yes. It has a lot to do with that. When you asked me that, it bothered me. It took me to a place that I thought I'd left from."Damita narrowed her eyes up to the ceiling.
"I apologize. I didn't mean to make you upset, but Damita we've been together for a year now and I feel like I know nothing about you. I haven't met your kids, I've never been to your house, and I can count how many times you've been to mine. You're not married are you?"Trevor joked.
Damita sighed and looked down at her phone. Aaliyah was texting her. "You are the first person I've tried to be with since my husband died and I'm just not used to you yet. Every time that you and I are together, I can't help but think about how you're not him. Things are different with you."
"You've never even told me about your husband. Why?"Trevor put his arm around her.
"I wouldn't want you to tell me about your girlfriends before me, because I don't care."Damita shrugged.
"I do care though. How long were you married?"Trevor asked and Damita mentally rolled her eyes.
Not because she didn't want to talk about her husband, but because she knew that if she got started talking about him she wouldn't stop. She knew that Trevor was nowhere close to what Amaru was and if she'd got to talking about him, he'd know that too.
"We were married for 7 years, but we were together for 12 years. We had a great marriage. Of course it wasn't perfect because nobody's relationship is perfect. We argued, we fought like cats and dogs."Damita laughed.
"When did he...you know?"Trevor asked not really wanting to say it. The word die sounded so harsh to him.
"When my twins were two months old. They don't know him at all. They only know what I've told them and the videos I've showed them."Damita chuckled.
"Wait, so you haven't had sex in 13 years?"Trevor widened his eyes and Damita laughed. "14. They'll be 14 this year."
"How have you managed to do that. 14 years is a very long time."Trevor chuckled. "It's been awhile for me now and I'm going crazy, but 14 years?"
"Well it's easy for me, because I've never been with anybody other than my husband and honestly sex has been the last thing on my mind. I miss him as person. Fuck having sex, I wish I could just hold his hand or lay on his chest just one more time."Damita closed her eyes tightly because she felt like crying.
This is why she didn't want to talk about this.
Trevor started to rub on her hand. "I don't know what that feels like, so I can't lie and say I know how you feel. I'm here for you though. I know you miss your husband and I can't be mad about that. All I can say is that I'll try to make you at least a little happy."He pinched Damita's cheek. "Can I see that cute little smile?"
