Guns For Hands

Leave Me Alone

TRIGGER WARNING SELF HARM, BLOOD, AND SUICIDE ARE ALL MENTIONED IN THIS CHAPTER

Pulling myself up off of the floor was more difficult than expected, but nothing compared to the battle that I was about to fight. I sat back on the couch next to my journal and phone. Unlocking my phone, I selected the music app. "Go Away" was the name of the playlist I picked, it was the playlist I made for myself that had the music that has saved me from Blurryface many times. "I'm Not Okay" by My Chemical Romance started playing. I laid back and hummed along to the tune.

I had been here for awhile, singing the songs, pondering the future, all happy things, I hadn't heard from Blurry yet, which was odd. I opened my eyes and sat up, half panicking. This isn't good. I stood up and paced around for awhile I know he's coming, I can feel it, "Where are you?" I said aloud, hoping Blurryface would reveal himself...no answer came from the dark creature though. "I know you are here somewhere." I gulped, "I'm not afraid of you." I looked in a circle around me, nothing. I did this for awhile, I couldn't see him but I still heard his slight whispers in my head, I could feel him in my mind, crushing every ounce of confidence that I had ever had.

Suddenly I heard a voice that was rough like gravel speak, "Did you miss me?" I turned my head to see the man-shaped figure staring at me from the kitchen with his glowing red eyes. "I certainly missed you, Joseph."

"What do you want Blurry, you never leave me alone unless you're plotting something big." My breath was shaky, but my voice sounded as sharp as a sword.

"Because, Tyler," He inched closer to me, "I'm planning what day your death day will be, the day I finally get you to give up." He smirked evilly.

"Y-you're not going to do that." I stuttered, "you aren't strong enough."

"That's what you think, Joseph. I'll get you one day, but until then, I'm just going to make your life a living hell." I saw the the creature turn into black smoke and fly towards me, before I knew it he knocked into me, I fell to the floor and fought to catch my breath. I sat up and looked around me, but I couldn't see Blurry anywhere. I caught my breath and shakily stood up.

"What's wrong Tyler? Did I scare you?" The voice in my head was loud now, it was the only thing I could hear. "Poor Tyler... with no one here to protect him from the voices in his head." Blurryface mocked. "Who's going to save you now? Your friends? Family? They don't love you. They only feel sorry for you, they all think you're crazy. Ya know that girlfriend of yours? She will leave as soon as she finds someone better, which won't be that hard."

"Stop it." I covered my ears to try to block out the noise.

"That won't help Tyler, I'm in your head. I control everything that happens. You. Are. Mine."

"That's not true. None of this is true." I picked up my phone and tried to call Josh but I couldn't focus enough to do anything right now.

"He can't save you from your own mind Tyler, you're all alone."

"Stop it! Just stop!" I started pulling at my hair, my mind was going a mile a minute.

"I stop when you're dead. You aren't good enough for anyone, you never do anything right, go ahead, cut yourself again. Who's going to stop a worthless piece of trash from killing himself?"

"Leave me alone!"

" I have no where else to go Tyler. I'm in your head, you sick, twisted, imbecile."

"Go away!" I fell to the floor, dropping my phone.

"NOT UNTIL YOU'RE DEAD, JOSEPH. HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO SAY IT? JUST GIVE UP AND IT'LL BE OVER." He yelled at me.

"WONT YOU GO TO SOMEONE ELSES HEAD." I started hyperventilating, all I could hear was Blurryface until everything went black. I couldn't see, I couldn't move, I couldn't breath, I could only hear Blurryface yelling, screaming, and tormenting me.
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I know this chapter is short, but I hope you enjoyed it! Sorry for all the triggers, but it's part of the story, remember that you are important and loved! Never feel like you can't talk to someone! If you can't trust anyone or you don't have anyone to talk to, I'm always here for you guys!

         ~ PeteyWentzy