Held Captive [Completed]

27.

My body is shaking still trying to recover from the shock of earlier. He saw me naked with faded bruises and scars.

I wrapped the towel tightly around me heading into the room.

What if?  No,he wouldn't.

He would never ever rape me. Or can he?
What if he really came in here to rape me? After all even though he apologized there is no guarantee he would never go back to his usual self that thought alone brought a shudder to me, a scared kinda shudder.

" Are you okay I heard scream" Joshua came in panting hard by the looks of it, he ran all the way here.

"Yeah, yes I am, I am just shaken I thought I saw something am sorry I called for false alarm".

"Oh, thank God I was thinking something happened or Benjamin escaped" right then my face drained all it's colour, I found myself thinking about all the horrible things I went through.

"Victoria?"

"Victoria damn it"!!!!

Those were the last words I heard before succumbing to darkness.

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"I don't know I think she had a panic attack, my God it's all my fault" I heard Joshua's voice.

Hospital? I am in a hospital? Did I faint? What happened?

I open my eyes taking the view of the room definitely not a hospital, I tried sitting but my head wouldn't let me, I let out a small groan.

"Oh my God are you okay"?

"Yeah, I guess so, what happened"? I asked as Joshua help me to sit upright placing a pillow at my back to rest on it.

"You had a mini panic attack and fainted".

"How long was I out"?

"Almost a day, you scared us Nathan was so scared he thought he lost you".

"Why would he be scared"? I asked confused.

He stare at me before speaking up "You really don't know, do you"?

Okay I am getting more and more confused and it's not helping given my massive headache. I gently rubbed my temple trying to ease it.

"What do I need to know Joshua? I might have forgiven him but I am not sure if I can forget, you know. Forgiving sounds easy but forgetting is kinda hard. Yes I know my mouth landed in this trouble , all I did was to stand up for myself. I might be a woman but I don't tolerate people looking down on, he kept me, kidnapped, took me against my will" my heart hitting against my rib cage thinking all about what happened and talking about it making all the unwanted feelings resurfacing.

I steadied my breathing before speaking up again "And then I was sold to someone else ,who happened to be good and it scares me knowing am not safe, my trust in people vanished I pictured every human to be like him, when I left there only to be brought back here with him please tell how do you expect me to trust him even though he gave me his words"?

"I.. I. "

"Yeah that's what I thought too".

He heaved a sigh "Listen Victoria I am terribly sorry you went through all these, but one thing I know is for sure he's deeply sorry for his mistake, and he won't trying until you are back to ..."

I cut him off "Really? Back to what? My old self? I doubt that's going to happen".

"All I am saying is give him a chance to redeem himself before you" he placed his hand on my small ones.

"Everybody deserves a second chance in life, what he did was unforgettable yes, he not only crushed you physically but also spiritually, emotionally. You forgiving him I don't know was a heroic thing to do not all people have that kinda heart but please. I am not speaking on his behalf I just want you to give him a chance to redeem himself before please Victoria".

"I don't know Joshua, I need time a whole lot of time, I can't just possibly magically heal" I slowly withdraw my hand from. "I need time Joshua".

"Yes of course I understand Victoria"

The bed dipped he scooted closer to me taking me in his arms, I stiffened.

"Relax Victoria, I would never hurt you " he whispered softly I released myself moving closer to him.

"Thank you, for everything you are like the family I never had".

"Shhh go to sleep Victoria I will right here when you wake up".

I smile softly letting myself fall into a deep sleep.