Held Captive [Completed]

31.

I watch as people were running finding shelter away from the rain, I stood there inhaling a fresh breath as I clutch my coat around that won't still stop me from getting wet.

I make my way home taking slow and calm steps as the rain kept pouring down hard, almost blurring my vision.

I use the back of my hand to wipe away the water and continue moving ahead.

The whole place was quiet no sound of anything even that of a car, it was so quiet I could hear my heart beat along with that of the rain hitting the roof.

I am going to get cold, a serious one at that, I know but somehow walking in this heavy downpour feels refreshing.

My mind is in a jumbled mess and walking in this rain is just perfect.

I found myself back to where I told him to stay away I could still picture the way his eyes held so much pain and agony and guilt and shame and then the love in it.

He wasn't the usual cruel man that took me away for God knows how long, he was different, but at the same time looks can be deceiving. What if he's just pretending? I come to know people can hide their emotions with their eyes as well as force an emotion too.

I heaved a sigh walking ahead. I was fine before he came, then everything else changed.

At my peripheral vision I saw a black car parked, it is the only car in the street , why do I have this eerie feeling that something is wrong somewhere?

Oh wait. I think it's the eerie feeling of being kidnapped again.

I hastened my pace occasionally jogging I look back seeing the same car taking slow movements.

Oh God. Does my entire life involves kidnapping? This time I jog-run trying to fasten my pace to get to a safe place.

I was looking at my back without staring ahead when I collide into something hard. I raised up my head slowly my heart ready to burst when I saw Joshua.

I let out a breath of relief. "What are you doing here in this rain"? I asked him taking in his appearance he look tired, puffy eyes? Wait. Wrinkled clothes?.

He held my hand tightly leading to the same car I was that was following but for some reason I felt safe, I knew he would never hurt me.

He opened the door for me, gently pushing me in it, he opened his own side and get it.

He ran his fingers through his already wet hair looking his gaze with mine, his vibrant green eyes looked tired.

"Oh yes why haven't I........."

One look from him I knew something was wrong, and it's terrible.

"I'm sorry for not contacting you for over 5 months, I was busy" I folded my arms across my heart anger bubbling inside of me.

Busy?

So much for taking him as a family just to have him abandon me for over 5 months and now came back with busy.

"I never wanted to leave you" he gently untangled my hand taking it in his.

"I was just so busy Victoria, I am sorry".

"Are you sure, that is the only reason"? I asked, I was half relief and I was half on edge, something still isn't right.

After a long pause he answered "No, that's not the only reason". My stomach drop and   my heart started racing.

I pulled my hand away cradling his face "Please tell me what's wrong"?.

His eyes welled up with tears and he broke into a soft heart breaking sob.

"You are scaring me Joshua, please talk to me, what's wrong"?.

He hiccuped "It's... I.. "

I await for the news that is so strong that made him cry.

"I'm sorry you had to see me like this" his was a little bit hoarse.

I gave him a small smile assuring him, it's definitely fine.

I let him rest, knowing asking him what's wrong now isn't the right time.

Is something wrong?
Is he sick?
Having difficulties?

"I know you are curious" his voice brought me out of my reviever. I sit properly and nod my head.

He chuckled. "It's Nathan". Time stops , I felt cold ,it's not from the rain, it's from within me, I haven't realized I was shaking until Joshua nudged me.

"What did you say"? I asked again.

"There is a reason why I haven't seen you for the some months now".

"I was busy attending to Nathan". He paused before speaking up again.

"He's dying".

He's dying.

He's dying.

He's dying.