Held Captive [Completed]

28.

Nathan Grey

When I got the news of her having a mini panic attack I felt everything gradually slipping away from me.

Fear. That's exactly what I felt I fear she will slip or get lost in that attack and never come back again or if she comes back she will never be herself again.

But when I heard her conversations with Joshua. I know I have to let her go she is not happy here. As usual I only care about myself without thinking about someone else. So I have made up my mind to let her go give her back her life and never show my face again.

"Nathan you called for me"? Josh's voice brought me back.

"Yes, please sit down" he sat down scooting closer to me.

"Nathan is everything okay"? He asked.

No, everything is not okay I am letting her go something I vowed never to do for once I wanna be selfless. Instead I said yes.

"I want hun.... Victoria to leave" I stated calmly hiding all emotions.

He stare at me dumbfounded before speaking up "You wanna let her go just like that"?

"Josh please she needs to leave I don't want her here I thought maybe seeing her will make me love but it's not happening. I want her out of my house before I will be forced to throw her out myself". Lie I want to take her in my arms kiss her, make love to her, spend the rest of my miserable life with her. Worship her, adore her, give her the fucking world if that's what she wants but right now her happiness is all that matters.

"Are you fucking serious? Can you just hear your fucking self? You wanna let her go"? He yelled.

"I. Said. She. Must. Go. Joshua got a problem with that"? I shot back clearly getting irritated.

He sigh "No sir, I will make sure she leaves today" he clenched his jaw obviously not happy with this.

"See you do that, you are dismissed" I waved him off turning my gaze away from him.

Hearing the door closed I sigh running my hand in my hair.

You did good Nathan remember it's not about you. You heard what she said "she can forgive but she can't forget".

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I watch as Joshua held her hand guiding her to the passenger seat I should be happy I made the decision yet I am not, I am so close in running downstairs to take her in my arms beg her to forgive me over and over again, in fact she should hit me, punish me, slap me. Whatever she wants to do I will like a good fucking man.

I sigh clearly irritated with myself I caused this I shouldn't have hit her hell no woman deserves to be beaten they are supposed to be nurtured, taken care of ,loved.

I kept watching until the car was out of my sight great now I need a drink.

I went over to the mini pouring a glass of whiskey. I just hope it's the right thing.

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"We have to merger companies with...." I cut him off.

"So you are saying before they sign the fucking deal I have to marry his daughter like hell I will, you know what? Call him right away tell him I am no longer interested" I yelled.

"But sir... We... We" he shutters, damn right you should before I will chop off your balls.

One glare he shut the hell up.

"I will inform him right away" he sigh feeling defeated.

"Good, the meeting is over"i walk out heading back to my office.

"Almighty Nathan Grey".

"Hello to you too" I muttered.

I marched over to the mini bar in my office about pouring myself a drink when Joshua snatched the bottle.

"What the hell"?

"You have been drinking too much and it's not good for your health, you could get sick Nathan or worse die" he scolded.

I folded my arms and scoffed " Please one glass won't hurt".

He narrowed his eyes"Okay maybe a little bit above 1". I snatched the bottle from him pouring myself the damn drink.  He sigh  taking a sit staring at me while shaking his head.

"What" I asked annoyed.

"Admit it, you miss her" I froze she is the damn reason I have been miserable it's been 8 long months already yet her departure felt like yesterday. I had to remind myself everyday I sent her away.

"What do you mean"? I poured another drink. "I don't know what you are talking about" I added.

He scoff "Yeah right of course you will deny. She's fine and doing okay, she's been attending school, trying to get back her life which and this is her address in case you change your mind" he placed the address on the counter and left.

Of course I know I provided with all that.

I sigh picking up the paper staring at it before tucking it in my pocket, moving to my seat.

She's fine without me.

Don't go.

Don't show yourself.

She has probably move on.

I groaned downing the whole bottle of whiskey, I need to forget for once.