Held Captive [Completed]

30.

Nathan Grey.

I stare at the view blanky as my thoughts have wandered off to somewhere else.

I triwl with the drink in my hand still staring at the view. I need her, I want her.

It's been hell without her my only mistake was raising my hand on her and letting her go. I should have begged her to stay.

Everything is just so fucking painful, life itself is painful, breathing has become one thing that I hated the most.

I sighed placing a hand over my aching heart. "It hurts" I whispered. "So fucking much ".

I sighed leaning back the moment I closed my eyes i saw her, her fierce spirit that I somehow crushed, and her mouth not to mention her body.

I need to see her. With determination I stood up stumbling on my way out.

The ride to her place I was nervous all through. How will she react? Does she even want me close? Will she be happy seeing me? Or will it bring back unwanted memories? I closed my eyes leaning back.

It's all my fault.

The car parked by the side of the road I saw her coming out, she look beautiful as always.

I got out of the car stumbling ignoring the looks from people passing by. My main priority now is to get closer to her.

"Huntress" I breathed out standing at her front.

When she slowly raised her head my breath hitched she is looking so beautiful yet innocent but her eyes held so much pain, fear, relieved, love? No. I am seeing things.

She closed her eyes reopening staring at me with a blank expression.

"Huntress" I called out again softly this time.

I stare at her in her beautiful eyes, how did I not notice this from the start? Why didn't I make her mine? Why did I raise my hand on her?.. I feel so ashamed of myself.

"You look beautiful" they came out on their own accord.

I grazed my thumb lightly on her cheek. She's so soft and silky.

"Beautiful" I muttered again still staring at her.

People around us have started whispering.

"Isn't that Nathan Grey"?

"Oh my God. He's the one, he's so..". I zone out focusing on the beautiful goddess before me.

"I'm sorry huntress" then I did the unthinkable going down on my knees in public with people passing by. Right then i don't care all I want is her and her forgiveness and her. Just her.

"I'm sorry" I said again a bit louder slurring along the way.

"It's been hell ever since you left, I shouldn't have let you go" I kept my head down.

"I'm sorry for taking you away keeping you locked up for so long for breaking you. I'm sorry for everything huntress".

Still in kneeling position. I didn't bother raising my head I fear I might see something that would crush me for eternity.

I ignored the whole world just the pounding of my heart. I won't be surprised if it should come out of its rib cage.

I am going to stay in this position for as long as it takes. I don't care if the whole world is staring at me right now, they don't matter. She matters.

"Get up". She said softly after a long pause.

I tilted my head up finally staring at her. She was equally staring at me with some much emotions that I can't quite say.

"Get up" she repeated again, this time stretching out her hand for me.

I wasted no time in taking her hand, making me stand on my feet, she gave me a small smile before leading me out of the place into a much calm seluded area.

"Why"? She asked after a long pause.

Why? Why? Why? I need you, I want you, I love you. Instead I settled with the silence.

"What do you want from me, what else do you want"? She raised her voice.

She stood up about leaving me again, I couldn't let her go not now, not anymore so I reached for hand grasping it lightly but firmly "Please don't leave, please don't go". I whispered my voice breaking at the end.

She pulled her hand away from mine instantly I felt cold, I was about reaching for it again when she showed me her hand, halting my movements.

"You can't just walk back into my life and expect everything to be normal. I have forgiven you, yes. Isn't that enough what else do you need"?

"I don't know what else I have to offer you again. You have taken almost everything away from me, isn't that enough"? This time she yelled.

I watched her chest heaved up and down trying to control her breathing.

"Please, please just leave". She said defeatedly "I don't have any strength left in me to fight you" she added. With that she walked away I watch her walk away again from me. This time she took my heart with her.

My heart aches painfully almost breathing has become hard, I tried letting air into my lungs proved abortive. So I stopped trying welcoming the darkness with ease.

For the first time in my life.

I blacked out.