Held Captive [Completed]

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I waited for what seems like years but in reality is only a minute or so. Still he isn't responding.

I took a deep breath trying to keep the tears at bay. When Joshua wrapped his arms around me making my 'keeping tears at bay'crashing down.

He listened whispering sweet nothings to me, telling me everything will be fine.

But the question is will it be fine really?

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"How are you feeling"? He asked after a brief silence.

"Fine I guess, how are you holding up"?.

He interlace his fingers letting out a sigh"The truth? I am not fine, hell I don't know what I felt right now, I feel.... Numb".

"You know I hate him so much" I placed my hands on my knees "I imagined several times how I would dance on his grave and be glad he's gone,  but now seeing him that way stir something inside me that I am not so sure what that is anymore. I hate this feeling Joshua, I hate it so much".

He gave me a small smile while placing his head on my back. "It's going to be okay". He whispered.

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I stood at his bed post staring at the monitor, that's monitoring his vitals.

Still the same no improvement, and the hospital added another time once that time is used up they will pull it off.

I closed my eyes. Have been doing that a lot it had become my daily routine. Closing of eyes , crying, begging, sleeping.

I heaved a sigh taking his pale lean cold hands into mine.

"Hey, it's me again" I let out a chuckle "If you can hear me, you better wake up so I can deal with you, I need to kidnap you and torture you the same way you did to me. Just kidding I would never do that to you". I interlace our hands together.

"Please wake up, there's so much I want to tell you and I want you to tell me I want to stare into your eyes and..." I trailed off.

"I love you Nathan. I really do so please wake up already don't leave here like this, I don't know what to do. I don't know if I can move on without you by my side" another fresh set of tears forming, I used the back of my hand to wipe it off.

"I want to see you smiling  even though you hardly do that, and I want to hear your voice".

"You know when I first saw you, in my head I was like you are handsome and tall so very tall". I smiled softly recalling the memory of our first meeting.

"Wake up okay? Please okay? If you don't I am coming in there to stay with you". I kissed his hand gently letting go of it about the leave when the monitor started beeping, so loudly I thought my ears would go deaf.

In a short time the room was packed with doctors and nurses attaching this removing that, injecting him with kind of things. I stood at the corner hugging my body.

My whole body trembles as I quietly hope he will be fine.

"Charge"!! I heard one of the doctors yelled.

Please be fine. I silently whispered.