I don't exactly think I love you or I'm in love with you because I've never experienced it beforeI'm sure I just really like you
I fell for you but it's not your fault
It was mine
Knowing your straight and falling anyways
I still don't think it's my fault either
You just being you attracts people
Specifically me ..and your boyfriend
I have nothing against him
I'm not the type to hate someone just because they have the one I want
I know we have no chance of being together but there's always a small chance that's in my imagination that keeps me liking you and It won't ever stop I'm sure
Falling for straight girls or your first girl crush is gonna be a real keeper in your head of thoughts
Your always gonna remember
In movies and shows they portray girl or guy characters to have a crush on the same sex as them and they most likely always end up with who they like
In real life there are very small chances like that
If it was easy everyone would be with who they want
It's even harder for me as a girl being bisexual and liking a girl ,not knowing if she is flirting or being nice
Or if I'm in my fucking ass
imagining again
we're just friends being friends right
An innocent hug that actually hits me harder than she thinks
She can make me nervous so quickly
She can walk into a room and I'll just look at her
During our bus schedule thing I wait in the bus and look for her
I've just gotten back to riding the bus because I had volleyball practice
Usually I would be a car rider but today I didn't have practice -
I wait for her to come out inside my bus
Not to talk to her but like admire her from afar
Today she came out with an umbrella because it was raining
The umbrella flew a little covering her face
She continued to walk to her bus as I watch and smile
How can she have such big effects on me from barely doing anything
I like her so much
She will never know
probably never will
I am thankful for her in my life for just making me smile
I don't get real smiles everyday
,thanks Amara
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RastgeleAN ACTUAL DIARY my diary of my crushes me and my whole life time to keep peoples identity safe like just in case this book is exposed,I changed their name ...actually my life story/ and diary PAST CRUSH STORIES, FRIENDSHIPS, AND RELATIONSHIPS (re...