The Diary of a Teenage Psychopath #Completed

Chapter 12: Scar

December 15th

Dear Simon,

I havent spoken to Lincoln in weeks. I haven't gone to lunch either. I cant handle seeing them all sit there together. Happy and laughing. Kyle is still in the hospital from what I can see and Scarlet gives me a look of sympathy every time she passes me in the halls. Lincoln pretends he doesn't see me, so I've started to do the same. The only person in the entire group that I have been talking to is Chester. 

I promised I would help him with SATS so we've been meeting monday through friday for at least 2 hours. The exam is tomorrow and i'm pretty sure he's going to ace it this time. He's so smart. 

I wish he didn't avoid talking about the group though. He doesn't treat me differently, but he stays away from talking about Lincoln. He told me that Kyle has 2 more weeks left in there before he gets released. Then he will be on crutches. He told me how he was already laughing and making jokes like he wasn't laid up in a bed. 

Having Chester around was probably the only thing keeping me together, even if it was strictly for school purposes. 

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December 25th 

Dear Simon, 

I hate Christmas. I purposely slept through the entire day. Mom didn't even come check on me and that hurt more than my hate for the Holiday.

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Janurary 10th 

Dear Simon, 

             Today was one of the best days, I've had in a while. Scarlet sent me a text before my last class was over and told me to meet her at Sunset Park. I desperately hoped she had weed because I needed it now more than ever. I haven't even smoked since my first time.

When I got to the location by the partioned walls that practically glowed orange from the sun, she was right there. Her back to the wall with a small rolled white paper in her hand. She looked up at me and smiled the smile I missed so much. 

"Hi." She said cheerfully. 

I returned the hi with a casual smile and sat right next to her. She took out her lighter and lit it up and almost immediately I felt myself calm at just the smell. She took a deep puff and passed it to me. 

"The group doesn't hate you Hedy. Everyone misses you, even Lincoln, though he wont admit it. I miss you too. It was nice having a girl in the group. I don't really know what happened. Lincoln won't tell me. But was it bad enough for you to just leave us completely?" She asked. The whole time she was talking I was staring straight ahead. 

Of course Lincoln didn't tell her why things got complicated. If he did, she probably wouldn't be here talking to me. 

"Do you like Lincoln?" I asked turning towards her. 

It caught her off guard. She took the weed from me and inhaled before answering. 

"I know the 'like' that you're talking about and I used to. I used to love him." She said zoning out. 

"And then what happened?" I asked. I began feeling the high and it relaxed me. I pressed my back against the wall, my head tilted towards Scarlet. Scarlet looked at me with glossy eyes before moving her head closer to mine. 

"This." 

Her lips locked with mine, soft and smooth before she pulled away. It took a while for me to respond because I didn't know how to or what to do. It was perfectly enticing, especially in the high. I sat there in silence looking at her devilish little smile. I've never thought about girls before that moment. But who wouldn't like Scarlet?