I'm going to be honest with you all.
My whole life I've felt like I've never been able to please anyone.
Everything I did was "not enough" You know?
Something was always missing.
And that feeling was horrible because it didn't just come from one pe...
When I was in kindergarten, l was this shy, quiet girl that people took advantage of quite often. Of course, I was too young to realize what was actually going on. It wasn't as bad as it was in sixth grade though. In sixth grade, I transferred to a new school. At that time, wasn't really the only new kid there was another one. Let's call her Emily. She and I didn't really talk that much at the beginning of the first two weeks considering we are new and stuff. I quickly adapted to the class environment and everyone "was' friendly for the time being.
One day I was so sick that l had to take a day off from school. Next day, when entered the class I talked to my "closest" friend of them all, let's call her Heather. I remember I asked her about our art assignment and then this girl, let's call her Cassie, started giving her strange looks. Being the naive girl that I was, I didn't really think that was suspicious. In break time, I found my class sitting as whole and since I'm an awkward and shy girl, I decided that it would be best not to join them. Days passed and everyone grew more distant. would sit alone everyday in the playground with the same exact book in my hand. As more days passed, I was getting called a 'nerd' 'stupid' 'idiot' etc. It started affecting me and I would cry and cry and cry. It became really frequent and I couldn't talk to an adult about it.
That was until one day they decided to be my friends again. I was so happy that I forgot about the fact that they were going to use me again. I ended up doing something never wanted to do: bullying a girl that bullied me. Now, to be honest, she deserves punishment for the hell she made me go through, but no one should ever be bullied. Years went by, Cassie left the school for good (thank the lord) and Emily had found new people to use as her minions. However this time, I had some friends to back me up. It took forever to find this little group of people that I can trust and although two of those people have left me for another school, we are still in contact with each other. Things like this are hard and you should be thankful for it. It makes you become wiser and more experienced. Now look at me, there is not a moment we're l don't thank God for blessing me with such amazing friends in real life and Wattpad. Thanks to these experiences I finally discovered that I'm worth it, that I was always good enough.
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