Wishful Thinker

track

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i was watching you, people
running endlessly
around the enormous track
in infinite loops
it always questioned me
if you ever get tired of it
i saw it in my eyesight and peripheral
the ones who fell,
who sprinted,
who slowed down their pace
and those who succeeded seizing their chance
and caught up to whoever they were chasing.
i heard the screams and sighs and groans
but i had no idea what they meant.

now, this, is my cry for help
another form of the cries you're hearing among the muffled ones of the others.
i was late to join this race
i didn't want to.
i believe everyone else here didn't ,either.
but something intrigued me, catching my eyes
something i always overlooked and never noticed
something about it made me want to run
for whatever reason i didn't know of
but i eventually set my feet on the track, in confusion
i felt some of you rush by
i thought we would collide and fall on our knees
but you just ran past me , as if i was invisible
i didn't fail to notice the tortured faces of yours
hmm, ludicrous i used to laugh
but well, do you hear the deafening screams now?
then you can hear mine too.
how?
it's somehow in the form of words.