The Boys Scent ✔️

VII - The Note

After sitting on the floor for a few minutes, the bell rang and that's when I remembered Nathaniel, Samuel, and the other guy were staring at me. I stood up too quickly and I put my hand to my head to ease the spinning. I looked down the hallway to where the three had been standing, but instead I saw their retreating figures.

I should've known. I told myself. You couldn't have known, Janessa. An unfamiliar voice said. Who are you? I questioned. I am your wolf. I am sorry I have only just shown up, and not on your birthday. Lycan's scare me. Anyways. My name is Alexa.

I have a wolf? Yes. I'm sorry about Kaydon rejecting you, but, he's gonna miss out on all the great qualities you have. I could picture her smirking. But on the inside I felt sad. I can't go crying to Nathaniel now, I've already chosen. Come on, in time, Nathaniel will recognize how much he cannot live without you. He needs you, Janessa. An unbelievable amount.

You're right, Alexa. I said to her and I stormed off to class. I didn't feel anything from the rejection anymore. I felt like myself again. It was like the rejection didn't effect me. Sadly, I had the next class with Kaydon and Nathaniel.

I walked in proudly. Everyone stared at me. I was late for class, but I didn't care. I sent a smile towards Kaydon and Nathaniel, and added a little more sway to my hips than usual, just to let them know what they were missing.

I chuckled to myself and took my seat, which was next to Kaydon, and in front of Nathaniel.

Kaydon secretly handed me a note. I opened it as he intensely watched me. It read, 'how are you so happy?' I just smiled at him and wrote down, 'because I'm glad I'm not the mate to some kid who thinks he's better than everyone else.' Then passed it back to him.

He opened it, and the look on his face was priceless. He stood up, pushing his desk away from him. He grabbed my forearm and hauled me up with him. Holding me in the same spot, he threw a punch, which I took gladly. The teacher and students just stared at us.

I twisted my arm out of his grip, and cracked his wrist. Then I kicked him where the sun don't shine, making him bend down. I followed the kick with a knee to his chin. Before I could threaten him, Nathaniel was in between us. "Save yourself and don't do anymore damage, Janessa." He spoke harshly.

By now the teachers and students had recognized the real threat and had left the classroom, only to be replaced by the lycans.

"Get out of my way, Nathaniel." I spat with venom dripping from every word. He almost seemed to shrink backwards, but he regained his strength. "I'm not gonna hurt you."

"But you'd hurt your own mate?" Nathaniel scowled back. He'd reached something then.

"He," I growled so harshly, Nathaniel flinched. "Is not my mate. Never has, never will be. And neither will you." Both boys looked crushed. Then I stormed out of the room, pushing past the lycans that were standing in the doorway watching.

I knew as soon as those words had slipped out of my mouth, I didn't mean them. I mess everything up. Everything is my fault. I held my head as I ran for the bathroom. I sat down on one of the toilets and thought about how much I had messed things up. Especially with Nathaniel. At first, I told him I needed to wait for my mate. Then when he gave me a choice, I chose my mate. And now that I found out that my mate rejected me, I was so frustrated and I managed to take out my anger on both of them.

I'll never get him back. He'll never forgive me. Yes he will, Janessa. You need to believe in both him and yourself. You just need time. And so does he.

I guess so... then I heard the bathroom door swing open. "Janessa?" It was the voice of the lycan that snapped his fingers in front of Samuels face.

I breathed slowly, and he walks up to my closed stall. "I know you're in there, Janessa. My name is Caspian. You can trust me. I know you're angry over the rejection, but we can talk about it." He said calmly. "I mean, I came into the girls bathroom for you." He chuckled softly.

I laughed along with him, but it was only a soft laugh. Then I wiped my eyes and got up to unlock the stall. I pulled it open, and through the mirror behind Caspian, I saw my reflection. I had tear streaked cheeks and puffy lips, along with red eyes. Caspian looked at me with such pity, I almost thought it was real. I knew it wasn't.

"Talk to me, Janessa." He said softly, walking backwards and finding a spot to lean on the pink counter.

"What's there to talk about?" My voice cracked, and I avoided his gaze.

"Janessa. Clearly, you aren't okay. You can talk to me. Tell me what's wrong." He was being pushy but I didn't care. He seemed like he actually cared.

"It's my fault. Everything's my fault." I cried, shoving my face into my palms. After calming down, I looked up to Caspian. He looked so sad.

"What do you mean?" He asked, quickly interested with what I said.

"I messed it all up. Me and Nathaniel. I'm his erasthai and I basically rejected him." I sniffled.

"For one, you cannot reject your erasthai. And I happen to know, that Nathaniel likes apologies. Just talk to him." He was saying this like it was so easy.

"Easier said than done, Caspian. He won't talk to me. He hates me."

He pushed himself off of the counter and stalked toward me, using swift glides as if he wasn't even walking. "Hate is a strong word, don't you think? And besides, Nath isn't capable of hate. Especially for his erasthai. Like I said, just talk to him, I'm sure if you
woman-ed up, and forced him to listen, he'd be all ears." I laughed cautiously.

"Thanks Caspian." I whispered as I was halfway out of the bathroom door. He nodded his head with ease and replied, "no problem, Janessa." Then the door closed and I found myself face to face with someone I did not want to see.