The Boys Scent ✔️

XI - New Start

"First of all, what happened to your shirt?" I laughed. I hoped he would forget about everything I've done and that we could be together.

He chuckled lowly. One that made my spine shiver lightly. He advanced towards me. I looked at Carly, and she had a knowing smirk on her face, where as Liam had a scowl.

"Wait!" I called at him. He stopped immediately. Nathaniel's eyes held a sadness that made me want to cry.

"Janessa?" Carly asked me. Her smirk had fallen and been replaced by a questioning look.

"I-I can't. Nathaniel, I'm sorry." I admitted. It was time for me to be true. "I didn't want to hurt you. You were the one person I didn't want to hurt. But even you can't be saved from me. I chose him because I thought it would be less hurtful towards you. But it turns out, it just hurt you more. I have this... burning feeling in my gut. It's telling me that I need to be with you, but my heart is telling me not too because I can hurt you. I can cause you pain unlike any other." I spoke.

Tears welled up in my eyes and I felt so exposed. I was just standing there, telling them about things I've been feeling, about things I would only write in a diary if I had one.

"J?" Liam asked. He got up out of the chair he was sitting in. When he got within three feet of me, Nathaniel growled so loudly it made everyone in the room flinch.

"Don't touch her." Nathaniel spoke. His voice wasn't his. It was deeper and when I looked in his eyes they were black. He took a few steps toward me, each step his growl got louder and deeper.

"Nathaniel?" I asked. He made me nervous, and each step he took made my body shake faster. I wanted so bad to be with him, but I was scared. not scared of him, but scared of myself; of what I could do to him.

"I'm sorry." Nathaniel spoke as he was just a couple feet away from me. "We put each other through hell. And for that, I am sorry. I want to be with you, Janessa. So bad, that my nightmares are made of you rejecting me."

This is your chance to make it right. Alexa said to me. Apologize for everything. Tell him that we should start over.

Not everything is my fault though, I shouldn't apologize for things I didn't do. Maybe I should tell him that we should start over. That would be good.

"I'm sorry too. I don't want to apologize for things I didn't do, and I definitely am not apologizing to my family for what I did, but I am apologizing to you. We should start over." I admitted, fiddling with my hands.

"What did you do to your family?" He asked, he seemed sincere and like he actually cared. I hoped it wasn't my mind playing tricks on me.

"I left them. They sent me to Twin Brooks Mental Hospital, so I left their dumb house. I'm staying with Carly." I spoke nonchalantly.

"What the hell? Didn't you shift to get out?" He frantically asked questions. "I'll kill those sons of bitches." Nathaniel cursed.

"Who? My family or the people who were doing their job? Actually, one of them let me out." I told him.

"Wait, why would they even put you in there? They would've had a reason." Nathaniel moved towards me then leaned against the counter that I was leaning against.

"Um, that's confidential." Carly spoke up.

"Yeah. Confidential." I confirmed, moving my gaze to the ground.

I knew Nathaniel was concerned, but it didn't bother me. I wanted to keep that to myself, I didn't want to worry him about it.

"It's over now. I'm okay. Everything, it's okay." I said. My head was still down, looking at the grooves in the tiles of the floor.