Raison D'être
(n.) A reason for existing
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Archer has been through a lot. Struggling with depression, and a voice in her head that just won't go away, she is driven to the edge of suicide. As she is almost successful, a...
We had talked all night long, until I fell asleep on the couch. He had insisted that I sleep on his bed and he can take the couch, but after what he has done, I couldn't do that to him. After about 5 minutes of arguing, I convinced him to take the bed.
The demons inside my head had finally gotten to me. They were relentless. So much so that in the morning, there were cuts, bruise, and a broken heart. I was crying while I took a shower, knowing that I will forever be alone, broken and worthless.
When I was done, Matt had finally came into the kitchen to eat. "Are you gonna eat? I am going make pancakes." He question, but you can sense that he was slightly hesitant.
"No, im not hungry"
"Ok, I wont push you to eat."
I lay on the couch, the ceiling like an old friend as I spaced out. I don't remember how long I had spaced out for, but I snapped out of it when I smelled smoke. Then came the screaming
"Shit! Fuuuuuuuck! What the fuck!" He practical yelled as he waved the towel, that looked like it was also about to be caught on fire
"Do you even know how to cook?!" I yell as I try to grab a bucket to put water in.
"I was distracted ok!" Matthew said in a normal voice.
"Well, I hope that the distraction isn't the cause of you burning the house down." I say as I finally find a bucket and putting out the fire.
"Why didn't I think of that?"
I look at him as if he was dumb "I have a feeling that you were trying to kill us"
"Well, now that the fire is under control, how about we go out for breakfast?" He said trying to change the subject.
"Did you not hear me when I said I wasn't hungry?" Raising my eyebrow
"Well, I'm not leaving you alone with your thoughts, and plus you don't have to eat, just come for... mural support" he says, trying hard to be funny.
I start laughing softly " Fine, only because you will most likely manage to break the car."
Matthew put his hand on his chest, acting like he was offended. "I have you know that I haven't had an accident since... a year"
"Oh, that makes me feel better about going with you" I say walking out the house to the car, grabbing the car keys on the way out. Swinging around into the house, saying "are you coming or not slowpoke?"
I saw him shake his head, finally running out the house and grabbing the keys from my hand. When I am in the car, I look at him and smile genuinely,
"lets go then"
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AN: hope you enjoyed that chapter, even though it was short. I might start making chapters shorter. Sorry if you don't like that, but it will be easier on me. Have an awesome day/ afternoon/ night? Love you guys❤️
