Can We Find A New Beginning?

Chapter 7

I awoke with a major headache, my eyes still shut to avoid the light that shone through the window.

Was it all just a horrible nightmare?

I fluttered my eyes open and took in my surroundings. I was laying in the backseat of my car, my head resting on Jack's lap as Flyzik drove my car with Zack in the passenger seat. Yeah, it was definitely not a nightmare.

I sat up straight and rubbed my puffy red eyes.

"Where are we going?" I asked.

"My house," Matt informed me.

I nodded and turned my attention out the window.

Memories of the last few minutes I had spent with Sky flowing back. I felt a lump in my throat and struggled not to let it escape my lips. But I failed. I sobbed and made quiet wailing sounds, causing Jack to turn and stare at me

"How long until we get there?" Jack asked.

"A couple more minutes." Matt responded.

I continued staring out the window, watching passing cars in hopes of distracting my mind from Sky. Though, it was useless because tears were still running down my cheeks.

"Kay, we're here Lex. Come on." Zack called after me.

I nodded, not once making eye contact with him, and got out of the car.

Matt held the house door open for me as I entered. Without looking back, I walked straight to his bathroom and locked the door behind me.

"Woah, woah, Alex!?" I heard Matt yell after me.

"Leave him, give him time." Rian's voice said.

I stood with my back against the locked bathroom door and slowly slid down as I started to break down... again.

My life fell out of place in a matter of minutes. Everything I loved was just taken away from me and I felt the depth of my pain. I was alone and afraid. Guilt, I felt guilty, as if I had let Skylar down because, well, I did. Maybe if I had acted more quickly things would be different. I knew that as soon as I faced reality, I would have to accept the fact that Skylar and my baby were gone. I didn't want to accept that though. All I wanted was to have Skylar back, I needed her. I didn't want to live if Sky was not next to me. My whole world crumbled down as soon as the doctor said that I had lost them. And as much as I wanted to blame Dr. James for their death, I couldn't. I couldn't because everything was my fault.

Right now the only thing I wanted to do was join Sky... and I would.

Without a second thought, I picked myself up off the ground and made my way to Matt's medicine cabinet behind the mirror. I swung the mirror opened and frantically looked through the bottles of pills, until I finally came across the solution to my problems.

I ignored the banging on the door that had been going on for quiet a while now. I opened the lid and dumped the pills in my hand.

"Open it! Open the fucking door!" I heard Jack shout from the other side.

"I'm trying!" Zack yelled back, slamming his body against the door.

I took a deep breath and stared at the pills in my hand.

You deserve to die. You deserve to die because you couldn't save them. You should have died instead of Skylar. And if you can't bring her back, join her.

Those were the thoughts that replayed in my mind.

"For you, Skylar." I whispered before popping the pills in my mouth.