Can We Find A New Beginning?

Chapter 23

*** Alex's POV***

I stared furiously at the stage while Jack, Rian and Zack tried holding me back from marching up there and probably causing a scene so ridiculous.

"Alex," I heard Sky breath out in the distance.

My head snapped in her direction, all the anger inside me being replaced by sadness as I saw her.

I forcefully pushed my band off of me and slowly walked over to her. I wanted nothing more than to sweep her into my arms and caress her as I told her I loved her. But I couldn't. This doubt was eating me away.

"Since when?" I asked softly.

"What?" she asked, staring confusedly at me.

"Since when have you and Patrick had a thing!?" I raised my voice unintentionally.

She jumped back in surprise, later frowning from my tone and I wanted to punch myself in the face once her eyes filled with disappointment.

"I didn't know Patrick felt that way... but I don't feel the same. Alex, I like you." she whispered.

I wanted to believe her sweet words but I couldn't bring myself to do so. Everything seemed so off put.

"Bullshit!" I yelled.

She stepped back, tears starting to well up in her eyes.

It broke my heart knowing that she was crying because of me... I was letting jealousy get the best of me but I didn't mean it, I didn't mean any of it. I knew this wasn't her fault, it was understandable that Patrick would feel like that towards her; she was perfect. She would never play with someone's feelings, I knew that yet here I was, yelling at her.

"Fuck you." she declared and stormed off.

I grunted at myself in agony and punched the wall, so mad at myself for giving into jealousy.

Zack ran past me, going after the most beautiful girl... that I had probably just lost.

"Alex..." Jack called out through all the noise.

My head hung low as I turned around to face him. He was most likely going to yell at me for shouting at Sky. She was like a sister to him. No one could even think about hurting her or Jack would turn into an older brother that you didn't want to mess with.

"Why the--"

"Jack." Rian warned, interrupting the full on lecture Jack was about to shout at me.

Jack nodded slowly at Rian, understanding his warning.

"Make this right." Jack directed to me through gritted teeth before walking off the other way.

Rian gave me a sympathetic smile before also walking away, probably to go find Cass.

I sighed out loud as I walked out of the venue and towards the streets of this city.

I had just blown any chance I had of being with the love of my life. I didn't even have her for a day until I ruined everything.

But I loved her. And she loved me?

She has to love me, she has to recall all those feelings she once had. I hoped that deep down, she still loved me, I could see it in her eyes, in her smile.

It was when I turned a corner, too busy in my thoughts to acknowledge that someone was following me, that I finally met true fear.

"Leeex." a female called out in a singsong voice.