december 1st, 2013 (around 1am)
ages; 19
he stopped walking, too.
i stared at him and i wanted to just ignore him and go into luke's room, pretending that it didn't happen. but i couldn't move. my feet were cemented into the ground. his hazel green eyes met mine and i tried to look away, but i couldn't.
ashton sucked in his cheeks. "what are you doing?" he asked, stepping dangerously close to me and i noticed he had his glasses on. "it isn't very safe in this hotel. you should get back to the roo-"
"like you give a fuck," i spat.
hurt washed over his face. i swallowed the lump in my throat as he moved closer. "don't say that," he said quietly. "i only did what i did to protect myself, to protect you. i didn't want to hurt you-"
i cut him off. "you couldn't have even said bye?" i asked, my voice breaking. he reached for me but i stepped out of his range. "you left me, ashton, to go live your famous life and get some supermodel girlfriend just so you could block me out like we didn't spend sixteen, almost seventeen, years of our life together? you couldn't say bye." i repeated that part because i still wasn't over it. tears formed in my eyes.
"i didn't want to know about annabelle because she's part of the contract," he said and i rolled my eyes.
"that's definitely what i want to hear, ashton, keep going with these great things you're saying!" i said with faux enthusiasm. "you know what? fuck you, ashton. i don't need you, i never have."
he rushed over to me and cupped my cheeks in his giant hands, pressing his lips to mine in a kiss. i melted into his mouth, taking his shirt between my fingers as he slid his tongue into my mouth. what the fuck was i doing? he slammed me against the wall and my hands moved up to his hair. his own hands moved down to my hips and then to the backs of my thighs as he brought them up and i wrapped my legs around his waist as we kissed.
"um."
ashton pulled away and i realized what the hell just happened, before jumping down and shoving him away from me. "don't touch me," i said, my voice now deeper and thick with warning. he shook his head in panic and tried to touch my arm, but i backed away towards luke's room. "you left me."
"maely, no," he cried, and i realized that luke was watching this happen. "stop, i'm sorry."
i raised my middle finger before luke tugged me into his room, and i didn't realize i'd dropped my blankets until i saw the already started pillow fort. "i left the blankets-"
"i'll get them," luke said dully. the door didn't close all the way so i moved over to it and watched from the crack. luke walked right past ashton who was leaning against the wall with his head in his hands.
as luke picked up the blankets, ashton stared at him. "what do you think you're doing?" he asked and luke turned to him, holding the blankets. "she's mine."
luke rolled his eyes as he stepped closer to ash. "don't you dare act like you care for her," luke threatened. "it's ballsy that you and michael's little bet is still happening with how much publicity we've been getting, but to even dare being maely into it... that's fucked up, mate. this is maels we're talking about. your maels. i actually love her."
"so what if i'm using her for the bet?" ashton spat, pushing luke lightly by his shoulders. i watched the two boys that were once best mates unravel before my eyes. "it's not like she'll even matter. we're going on the last leg of the tour in a week."
luke stepped backwards, and now i was crying. "you're such a dick."
"what, luke. do you think you can start a little relationship with her?" ashton taunted. "she doesn't like you. she never will. besides, she won't put out before we go to the states, anyways."
i couldn't hear anymore. i weakly crawled under the amateur pillow fort that luke had already made and tucked my head between my knees with my thighs to my chest. i clung to my legs as i silently sobbed into them, my eyes shutting tightly. the door closed and i tried to fix my red face and tear stained cheeks.
luke's bare feet appeared outside the fort. "i, um, maely?" he dropped to his knees and his eyes filled with worry when he saw the state i was in. "what- did you-"
i interrupted him by curling my fingers around the neck of his band tee and hooking him towards me, pressing my lips to his in a chaste kiss.
