[ dear nia, i updated. your turn. love, willow xox ]
december 1st, 2013 (around 2)
ages; 19
ashton ended up receiving a lovely smack to his face and then a running annabelle and he chased after her.
luke and i kept making out even after they were out of sight because making out was fun and we could. eventually i pulled away because i felt a sneeze coming along. i turned my head and let it come out. luke backed away. "aw, is little maely sicky wicky?" he teased and i shook my head, just as another sneeze came.
"shut up," i crossed my arms. it was getting kind of brisk outside so i was chilly. "can we go in?" i was asking everyone, really. they all agreed, and we all got out of the water. luke pinched my bum and i pushed him back in the water, making him squeal. "really manly luke." i wrapped myself in my towel.
"you know me," he giggled as he got back out, and i held his towel up for him like he was a little kid. "thanks maels." i started drying him off and we were the only ones left, so i took my time.
in the process of drying him off i sneezed at least four times, and he finally got fed up with my sickness, so he yanked the towel from my hands and started to walk away. i giggled and pouted. "lukey poo," i whined and he turned around, so i opened my arms. he grinned and rushed over to me, surprising me by kissing me.
and then we heard it.
click click.
and we saw it.
the flashes.
i pulled away in shock and he threw the towel over my head, pushing me towards the door as he grabbed his phone. we ran through the lobby and to the elevator, which was luckily empty. "shit, luke," i cried, putting my hands on my head.
"no, baby, it's okay. they didn't see your face so you're alright," he quietly assured, though i could hear the panic in his voice. he leaned down and kissed me again until the elevator doors opened, and we went down the hall and surprisingly, ashton was waiting outside luke's door. "um-"
"shut the fuck up luke," ashton spat. my eyes landed on him and i scowled. "maely, i really need to talk to you." i tried to walk past him into the room but he grabbed my wrist. "it's important."
maybe it was because i was vulnerable or maybe it was the way his voice cracked, but i nodded and shook his hand off of my wrist, walking into the hotel room to get changed. i felt like crying again. luke was on the bed and i smiled weakly at him. he frowned and i sighed, turning away from him. i literally just pulled my bra off with my back to him and picked his all time low shirt with the camo sleeves up off the floor and put it on my body. then i peeled off my underwear - it was okay because the shirt was long enough to just cover my spots. i pulled on my old volleyball spandex that i'd packed. looks like i was going commando.
"maely, look, i have to tell you something-"
"can it wait? ashton's waiting for me," i trailed off, not really sure why i was choosing ashton over luke.
luke barely smiled before turning away from me and nodding, playing on his phone. "sure, yeah. i'll be here," he mumbled and i nodded, pulling my checkered socks back on, then wordlessly leaving the room.
ashton was waiting for me. he had on a black band tee - the misfits - with his swimming trunks and a pair of sneakers on his feet. he had a bandana on his head, pushing back his curls and he looked at me nervously. i gulped and walked up to him. "follow me," he said before walking down the hallway and without really thinking i trailed behind him. we ended up silently riding the elevator to the top floor, which was literally scary and dark and all the rooms were probably empty because the hall lights were off.
i heard a clang from one of the rooms and jumped, grabbing ashton's hand without even thinking. he laced our fingers together and lead us down the hallway, to a door at the end. he pushed it open and then we were faced with some stairs. i wanted to run back to the elevator and just go to luke's room, but i couldn't.
"are we allowed up here?" i asked, and he shrugged, muttering how it wouldn't matter anyways, he was ashton irwin.
we went up the stairs and it was pitch black and i was super scared and i wanted to go back but i didn't think i could without falling down the stairs. ashton pushed open a door that was at the top of the stairs and the cool breeze bit at my skin and it hit me.
we were going on the roof.
as went over to the ledge, i took the time to admire sydney's beauty from up here. bright lights of the buildings were blinding yet calming, and i felt my heartbeat growing more distressed by the second.
he dropped my hand as we sat down on a little vent thing because he probably knew i'd shit my pants if we sat on the edge. it was quiet and i wondered if he was even going to speak. "annabelle broke up with me," he said, and i played with the hem of luke's shirt. ash watched my eyes roam all over his face. "and the fucked part is, i'm not even sad. obviously she was for show but i think deep down i likes her as a person, but now she hates me and i'll never get to talk to her again- i don't know. i'm just not as upset as i should be."
"why're you telling me this?"
ashton looked at me like it was obvious, reaching up and tucking a piece of hair behind my ear. i shivered from the cold and his touch combined. "now we can be together, maels," he smiled.
i pushed his hand off and jumped off the vent, backing away from him. "are you-" i stopped to chuckle humorlessly. "you're insane. completely fucked in the mind, huh? you actually think we could work out now? aw, that's actually kind of cute."
the smile fell. i watched him stand up and make his way towards me. i backed away as he got closer, though.
"no, no. don't you touch me," i warned. "you think that just because you take me up to the roof of your fancy hotel with this beautiful fucking sight to tell me your supermodel girlfriend, who wasn't even real, broke up with you, and now you think i'll still love you the same after you left me for two fucking years?" he looked at me with stupid sad eyes and twiddled his thumbs. "you need to be checked out. badly."
he swallowed harshly before looking away and then i saw a tear fall down his right cheek before the dam broke and he started crying a fucking lot and-
i didn't know what to do with a crying asshole.
