Letters to Her

Letter Seven

Letter Seven

i was so close to harming myself again today.

i almost did it because i thought you didn't like me anymore. i thought you were lying to me, that you had moved on.

i almost did it because thought i had lost you. the only person that felt at all important in my life was gone.

i dont think you know exactly how important you are to me. you mean so much to me.

i hate seeing or hearing you talking about your self in a negative way, you are just so perfect to me i dont know how you can hate yourself so much.

its possible though because i hate myself just as much. i should've done so much different but i just cant. i cant redo anything. but whats a life worth living without regrets?

i have a lot of regrets. making friends with a lot of people. with certain people. i regret never doing anything when you are sad, i just dont know what to do. i dont want to hug you because i know you dont like them and i dont know how awkward that would be. i dont want to embarrass you.

i regret never doing anything with you.

i just care so much about you, everything i do seems like the wrong move and you wont like me at all anymore. sometimes i think about how one day you might just realize that im not great, not as great as you once said i was.

this sounds like a cry for help or something but i just cant take this. i dont know why i thought hurting myself was a option, it was just a thing of w moment. i have those, but i didn't do it. are you proud?

there are alot of things i want to say, but i shoudlnt. i dontwant to lose you because you thought i was creepy or something. ill keep those to myself.

please stop doubting yourself. you are perfect to me okay?

Much love, ♡

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(a/n) i might reveal her name, and then start using names. im not sure if ill use real names, because one entry i wanna say but if its a fake name i cant say it.

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