Letters to Her

letter eleven

letter eleven

please know that everything in these letters are true. the feelings, events, everything.

i like you. i like you a lot. i dont know why you doubt that. i told you first that i liked you so why would i just stop? i have no one else to confide in the way i do to you, and i have no one else i'd rather be with than yourself. i like you for everything you are and everything you think your not. every flaw is perfect to me. i dont want to be with anybody else.

i know that you think pretty low about yourself, and i just cant understand why. i think low of myself because im not everything people think i am. im a awful human being and i cant stand living in my own body because i hate myself so much. everything i say i want to take back because it probably hurt someone somewhere. im not normal, by mind is psychotic, and im never happy with myself. i just cant stand my actions and i hate how awkward and unsocial i am. i hate how i have social anxiety, i hate how i always think the worst of every situation, i hate that im fat, i hate how short i am, i hate my face, i hate my hair, i just hate everything. i dont know how you said you liked it.

i know you are probably saying the same stuff but seriously, everything you hate i love.

i dont know why you think you're such a bad person. you're honestly great. you know who to have as friends, and you know how many to have.

me, i cant say no to anyone because i hate hurting peoples feelings because im scared they will leave me and they will talk about me and all that. i just tell everyone ill do what they want because i dont want them to hate me. i hate myself for that.

i wont leave you.

i wont leave you.

please dont think i will.

i cant change anything about you hating yourself, but i can say that i like you for everything you dont think you are. i dont want to think of a world without you.

'i dont want to see a world without you.' (that reference doe)

ok well i hope you understand what im trying to say.

as always,

much love, ♡