Letters to Her

Letter Four

Letter Four

I don't understand how I can be so happy one minute then the next extremely sad. Like it happens all the time.

I want a friend where we take pictures and post them on Facebook or Instagram or as each other's profile pictures, but I have never been that friend. I want to have memories. We don't.

I don't have anybody like that.

It really hurts when you think someone likes you like that, but then it never happens, and you've been replaced-just like that. I get the feeling all the time. What would It hurt again?

I discovered something. I discovered that I really like you, not just some silly crush. I want to tell you so bad but I don't want you to get weirded out and leave me. You are the only person I have.

And I am scared of rejection. If you don't like me back, it's just awkward because I can't just say "o well I don't like u anymore then" because that's not how it works. I really like you and I really just don't want to lose you.

I have finally found the person I want to spend my life with. You are just so great, you let me know that someone cares, that someone is there for me. I really just can't say thanks enough because you really just make me happy.

It just happened again. Me getting really happy for something then thinking of something worse and then i get sad. I was just thinking that we are gonna be in different classes. How are we even gonna talk next year? I'm terrified because my best friend won't even be in my classes next year.

I just have to keep thinking that my brother and his girlfriend dated and they weren't in the same class. I have to hope that happens to us. That we can so till talk and stuff even though we aren't in the same class.

I know you're depressed. It makes me really upset that I can't do anything about that. All i can say is "i care" and "I'm here for you" but really I know that doesn't help. It's all true, though. I really do care. I will listen.

I really like you. A lot.

Much love, ♡