The White Wolf (complete)

Chapter 11-Dark Past

Everything was blank. All I saw was darkness. No sound,nl no one around me and there was no surrounding. I couldn't think of anyone. My mind completely blank. All I could hear is my uneven breathing. My mind narrows down to the terrifying memory. A day I never wanted to go through again...

"Hey Baby, there are some pack members who want to meet you." His voice sounded serious and I was beyond terrified. A shiver went down my spine. Just on cue, a few guys who looks a little older than me comes in. They all bowed to their 'Alpha' and turn towards me. Their eyes roaming my body. One of them licked their lips and smirked. I took a step backward as an instinct. I wanted to run away. Now. Just then, a pair of arms wrap around my waist, pulling me closer to him. My heart started beating like crazy. I could hear my heartbeat ringing in my ear. I regret that decision, I regret ever thinking about running away. I was wrong. I could never ever run away when he has his eyes on me.

My 14-year-old self was fearful. "Alpha, can we have fun now?"I turn and look at him in fear and desperation. I was begging him not to do it. He grinned evilly and I knew all chances of getting him to change his mind were gone. The 'Alpha' nodded and they started pacing towards me. The guy who grins walk towards me and pushes me gently, my back hitting the wall. "Please.... Don't.... " Tears were streaming down my face. He smiled and started ripping my shirt off me. He cornered me and started trailing kisses down my jaw to my collarbone and then to my now naked body.

I bit my lip. He forced my legs to wrap around him and he started kissing me forcingly. I could feel his crotch against mine. He forced his tongue into my mouth and started making love to me. I accidentally moaned and his eyes darken and made love to me intensely. After what seems like forever, he leaned in and kissed my forehead. He stood up and straighten out his shirt and smiled at me before leaving.

The other two guys looked at each other and one of them gave a firm nod. Then, they started kicking me. My stomach was in so much pain. I curl up into a ball. They continue doing it over and over again. It was never-ending.

Black spots appeared and I knew I was losing consciousness. I was in so much pain that even the slightest movement made me wince in pain. I couldn't hear anything except for the impact of my body. I gasp as I tried to breathe. That was the first and last time I ever thought of running away.

I woke up from the nightmare, drenched in sweat. I look around and realize that I was in an unfamiliar room. It was filled with my mate's scent.

The room is huge. I was sleeping on a king size bed. I put away the blanket that was covering my body and walk in the bathroom. The bathroom had a bathtub big enough to fit five people. There is a shower and a toilet cubicle placed in the corner. It is so beautiful. There is a sink and a mirror, showing my reflection. I looked tired and my eyes reflected fear. All I wanted was to take a shower but I don't have any clothes.

I walked out and head straight towards the door. Just as on cue, the door opens to reveal......Bella. "Bella, I ne-" I was interrupted by her hug. I gladly return the hug. "What were you saying?" She looks at me curiously. "Can I borrow your clothes?" I looked down. "Sure! I will be right back!" She gives me a warm smile and leaves the room.

I was still in the shower. From the lukewarm water, the water has turn cold. I bit my lip in an attempt to not let the tears out. I was tired of crying. I was tired of getting nightmares every single night and waking up, drenched in sweat. I didn't want to appear weak but I am.

You are the chosen one. I recall the dream I had a few days ago. Why me out of 7 billion people in this world?What makes me so special? There is always someone prettier, smarter, kind, stronger and wealthier. Why me?Suddenly, the water shuts off and I turn around, shocked to see Bella standing there. I didn't realise her come in. "Oh goodness, your scars." She eyes my body and I cover it with my hands even if she saw most it. I quickly took a towel and walk out to get dressed. I didn't want anyone to see my scars. They make me feel insecure and vulnerable.

I quickly grab the clothes which were folded and nicely placed on my bed. Once I was done, I wanted to run out of here but I was interfered by someone holding my wrist. "Ohh gosh." She sighed and I knew at that moment she was going to say something about what she just saw.

"Don't. I don't want you to pity me. Just pretend like you didn't see anything. " I looked straight in her eyes and she looks down before taking a deep breath. She stands with hurt clearly reflected in her eyes.

I took that as my signal to leave. "Is this how you have always been? Pushing everyone away when they want to help you? You don't realise how many people are struggling because of you." I turn my back towards her, guilt consumed me and my eyes starts watering.

"I guess you never did because you are so SELFISH. You only care about yourself and you have NEVER cared about another persons' feelings. I thought after you tried killing yourself, you would learn to be more open and caring but you're still the same old you." My heart aches from the sting of her words. Tears rolled down my cheeks. "I know you have had a tough life." There was a lingering feeling of pity and harshness.

"Do you have any idea how it feels like living in a HELL HOLE? Every single day, I face a man who labels himself as my uncle and he's the demon who tortures me. Do you even know that feeling when you're scared even in your OWN house, hoping that nobody will take advantage of you? I run away from my problems because I am ASHAMED of it.

Ever since I was young, my childhood was filled with my parents constantly fighting every single day." I am still facing away from her. "I never had a proper family dinner or a happy memory with them. I had an elder sister named Taylor, well she left because she found her mate. She didn't want to leave me but she couldn't do anything about it,"

"I have another brother, his name is Aaron, he is 12 years old but he never once treated me like a SISTER. He treats me like I am a STRANGER. And then Audrey came." There was a moment of silence. I didn't dare say anything about the birth of Audrey." All of them resemble each other but I don't. I now realized the reason behind it..I am not their REAL sibling." When I say it, it feels more real and I didn't want to think that.

The moment I found out, I didn't know whether to be content or not that they are not my real family. "How cruel is the world towards me! I wanted to be HAPPY for once in life. But even after running away, I face more problems." I shed unwanted tears.

"Every she-wolf would be happy to meet her mate. I am different from other she-wolves because I am afraid of my own mate. I am afraid he will hurt me like my Uncle did. Not to even mention my own father. They brought out the worst in me. I HATE them." I feel the weight on my shoulders lighten the slightest bit. I stood frozen in place.

I came face to face with the person I least expected.

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