Diary of Liena

i dont know

Hey

Dear old bestfriend

I was there for you , everyday , everytime .
I dont jugde you , i've never done.
I respect your character also it was hard sometimes.

And you?
You treat me like a stranger..
Scream at me..
Dont wanna meet me...
Dont talk to me
Dont text me
Dont ask me

You forget me , your other friends are more important for you.
And its okay..but they wasn't there for you in your hard / bad times...i was always there...but your never for me..

And it hurts like hell.
Of course i have other friends too , and  i can talk with them all the time..but not about my special deep toughts and feelings...

I've think you was there for me everytime...you promise me.
But you dont do it.

I guess after you read this you text me that your so sorry and you dont know what happends..

But honey its to late to say sorry.

Last month many bad things happend to me , depression catch me more than it ever does.

Music arent help me at nights anymore , my friends too.

And you arent there...

And now i dont want your help anymore , cause you cant help me anymore.

I've never cut  because a person hurt me..
But know  i have.

I cant help myself anymore.

Im too dead for it.
Im too  tired for it.

And i just want to die.
More than on every other day.

This month is and was the hardest time for me.
And i've many bad times.

But i lost all my friends , all my close friends who can understand me or try too.

Now i lay all alone in my bed .
And cant understand why.

I know im a bad person , and arent helpfull the last times...but i've tryed .

Bye old friend..