Philophobia: The fear of falling in love and becoming attached to people.
Not letting yourself connect to others leads to severe loneliness, depression and anxiety.
Virgil had Philophobia, and he knew it. The others thought of him as an 'Emo Nightma...
It's me - The One Side That No-One Likes™. Are you happy to see me? Of course not, I'm not even happy to see me sometimes.
It's all because of this stupid fear I have, Philophobia. It forces me to keep my distance from the others even if I feel like I should open up more. I want to be able to get closer, but I can't. It's not my fault, it just comes with the curse of being the literal embodiment of anxiety and fear! They see me as an 'Emo Nightmare', a 'Supreme Dark Overlord of Negative Commerce'. Heck, I've even been called a 'Beast' before! It's not fair, I so wish I could tell them everything but then there are the voices in my head that decide to stop me whenever I feel calm enough.
They won't care.
You shouldn't bother them.
They'll just make fun of you.
Becoming attached is showing weakness.
I can't help it. The clue's in my name. Anxiety. Virgil = Vigilant. It'd be like me trying to tell Thomas to stop being gay! It's just not right, I can't change who I am. I'll just have to deal with it, being the outcast of the group, remaining unnoticed by everyone.
That's all for now,
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I set the pen down on the table and closed my diary.
