My Rose- Jaehyun- NCT

6.

Rose's POV

ONE WEEK LATER

I hadn't left my room in days. My head was filled with scary and dark thoughts; I couldn't face going to work and seeing people. 'Stupid brain' I thought to myself. It's caused me nothing but shit and worry. I wish I could be normal. So I could go see my friends without breaking down. Or maybe even smile for once. I haven't genuinely smiled since Taeyong's death. There's nothing to smile about. The only person I had ever loved was gone. How was I supposed to be happy? This past week I couldn't get Jaehyun and Taeyong out of my mind. I don't get how I could be so stupid to think it was Tae comforting me? I rubbed my temples in circular motions and sighed. I felt physically sick. Not even an ounce of energy coursed through my body. 

After hours of moping around my room, I finally decided to go for a walk. I lazily pulled on the oversized hoodie that Tae had left me and walked out of the door. I was heading to the only place that comforted me. The park where I first met Tae..

Jaehyun's POV

I was walking down the street heading to the café where I last saw Rose. I wanted to see her again. More than anything. That morning I had lied to all my bandmates and had told them I was going to pick up a few things I left in the studio. Nobody would let me go if they knew the real reason. This time I had made sure to wear a mask and a hat so hopefully nobody would recognize me. The scenery here was so beautiful. Cherry blossom petals danced and twirled. The sun beamed down on me and the breeze ran it's fingers through my hair. Couples and families walked down the streets laughing and smiling. I loved it here. I wish was normal. I envied the couples who were able to openly express their love. Everyone blended in. It upset me that I knew the minute I took off my mask fans would recognize me and id have to go back to reality. Don't get me wrong. I love my fans. But sometimes I just really, really wish I was normal.

After a few more minutes of walking, I finally entered the café. The strong smell of coffee welcomed me. My eyes wandered around the room trying to find Rose, but she was nowhere to be seen. My heart dropped and a sense of disappointment washed over me. 'Maybe I can ask around' I thought. So I headed up to the till and asked the short blonde lady with a name tag reading 'Lucy' if she had seen Rose.

"Aniyo, I haven't seen her at all this past week" She said, her smile turning into a frown. Where could she be? Has something bad happened? Negative thoughts entered my mind. "Ah okay thank you," I said as I turned around and walked out of the door. I wonder where she is.

I decided to walk to the park. It was so peaceful this time of afternoon and I knew that not a lot of people would be there. I took off my mask and enjoyed the cool, crisp air hitting my face. Nothing was better than this. My eyes scanned the park as I took in every ounce of beauty. From the leaves and petals falling to the golden orange sun set. As I was looking I noticed a familiar frame sitting on a park bench, her brown hair blowing in the wind. It was Rose

AUTHORS NOTE

can we admit NCT is the best thing since sliced bread?