That Was Then, This Is Now

Part 15

"Thanks for dropping me." Faith says as I pull up to the four seasons. "I appreciate it."
"Yeah no problem. Good job tonight. The song sounds great." I smile at her. After Gary and Jack reprimanded us we went back into the booth and got the song recorded. We got it finished just liked they asked.
"You too. I'll see you later." She says turning to get out of the car. "And you'll come round tomorrow Betty?" She asks.
"Of course honey. I'll see you tomorrow." My mom says from the back seat. Faith gets out and is mobbed by the paparazzi waiting. I'll make sure to stay long enough for them to get a photo of me leaving as I was instructed to.
"Why are you meeting Faith tomorrow?" I ask my mom, trying not to sound defensive.
"Well we are just going to have some coffee. Catch up and what not." She says vaguely. "The song sounded really good, Byron was so happy."
"Her voice is amazing." I add.
"You two sound good together." She says. "Reminded me of Its Your Love." She says quietly.
"Except it's in the complete other end of the spectrum." I laugh. Ironic huh. We reconnect to sing about how we're broken up. I mean it's a good way to solidify it in our brains.
"What was up today? I thought you said the dinner went well?" She asks as i stop at the red light.
"I thought I did. But then I got there this morning and she looked like she hadn't slept and all of a sudden it was like all our progress had been trashed." It's true. She looked exhausted and overwhelmed and then it just felt like she shut me out before even saying hello.
"Well maybe she was just having a rough day."
"It's a lot to take in all at once. At least I've got you and my apartment. She's alone and living in the four seasons. Not exactly fair is it." I stop before I say something that my mom would hate. Something like 'it's not fair because it's my fault she's alone.'
"Well I'll check on her tomorrow. I need to go home in another day so are you and I going out for dinner tomorrow or are you gonna cook your meals momma something?"

Faith POV
I open the door of hotel room and just crawl to the couch. I turn the TV on and it's me. I'm on TV. It doesn't matter how famous you get, there's always something weird about seeing yourself on TV.
"It appears Nashville's sweetheart Faith Hill is living at the four seasons as her ex fiancé Tim McGraw dropped her off there this evening. Sources close to the star report that her and her fiancé Scott Lines have split. This is the 5th time we've seen the ex country royal couple together this week. Is there a reunion on the horizon. Stay tuned for developments or follow our hashtag timandfaithreunion on twitter for as it happens updates. Im Celine Millar and you're watching Enews." I guess all this shit is at least generating buzz. I want it to be over now. I'm done. I know it's only been a couple of days but about to have breakdown number 4 and the reality of sad life is kicking in. This sucks. Life sucks. I grab my laptop and open my emails. The first thing I see is an email from Gary addressed to me and Tim.

Hi Faith and Tim,
here is your schedules for the next while. I know it looks like like it's a lot but don't worry, you'll cope.
See y'all Saturday at the shoot.
Gary

Awesome. I open the calendar attachment and I'm instantly overwhelmed. So today, Thursday, we had the song recording, tomorrow nothing, Saturday single cover shoot, Sunday morning radio interview and a 'intimate lunch', Monday we're going to some record label thing, and Tuesday is the CMAs. Great, not stressful at all. I scroll down and see a side note. Y'all are presenting an award at the CMAs so be ready, and you're doing the red carpet together. I can't believe they managed to arrange this all in a few days, if I wasn't mad that i have to do it all I'd be impressed. The devil works hard but these guys work harder. I completely forgot about the CMAs Scott was going to be my plus one but that's clearly cancelled. I watch some shitty reality TV show but in my mind I'm analysing my day. I know was being a brat, I was being difficult on purpose and it wasn't fair to anyone especially not Tim. But after last night with Kat and Steph and them saying that we could get back together I went through all the reasons why we should. They were I think I still love him.... not enough really. And then all the reasons we shouldn't, being: he hurt me, he left, he ignored me, he destroyed me, I destroyed him, we're to busy, two famous people never make it work, and he really hurt me. Did I mention he hurt me? Ripped my heart out and stomped all over it. Yeah. It felt to good at the bluebird and I need to step back and give myself perspective on the situation. Scott was an asshole and said awful things but Tim literally destroyed me. How was I supposed to deal with the man I love nearly killing himself  and then not wanting to see me? It was horrendous. It felt like my soul had been ripped out and thrown away with no regard and I can't ever give him the opportunity to do that again. Buzz buzz. Argh, what now? I think to myself reaching for my phone only to see a message from my mom. Hi Audrey, it's your mom here. Was just checking to see if you were okay? I've seen you in the magazines and tv a lot. Can't wait to see you at the wedding next week! Love you, mom. The wedding! Lord it's my brothers wedding the week after next and I'm in the middle of this fiasco. Oh well, Gary knows and he's gonna have to make do.  Betty is coming to my hotel tomorrow for coffee and we said we might go shopping but honestly I think if I see her I might break down again. What she said broke me. "Just because you two stopped loving each other doesn't mean I stopped loving you." It hit me because after Tim nearly ODed I didn't think to reach out to her or Tracey or anyone. I just wallowed in misery thinking it was the end of the world but she almost lost her son. I try to quiet my mind and focus on the TV just to stop myself from crying again, except it doesn't work. I fall asleep watching Bravo and crying.