That Was Then, This Is Now

Part 27

Faith POV
So today I was interrogated by every single member of my family in regards to Tim and Is situation. "Are you back together" or "do you still love him" or "do you think he still loves you". If I had a dollar for every time I heard that today I wouldn't need to make music anymore. We wrapped up the day when Tim had finished helping my brothers and dad set up the big marque tent in the backyard for the wedding reception. It took them longer because apparently my father needed to speak with Tim. All I can hope is that no punches were thrown. Tonight all the young people are going out with the bride and groom. My brother did want a bachelor party so instead of two separate shindigs we're all going out together. We walk out to Tim's truck and get in without speaking a world to each other.
"Faith we need to talk." He says as he shuts his door.
"After. Let's get through this weekend first." I say. I do this for two reasons the first being that I'm tired and really don't want to get into this now and the second being that because I know how I feel I don't want to push him away before we've even had the chance to fix anything. We ride to the inn in silence, I cantle he just wants to get whatever it is he's holding in off his chest but I don't want to do that. Were passionate people, its a fact. It will be best to just let I slide now, get the wedding done and then drive back to Nashville and see where we stand.
Where we stand. I'm not even sure where I stand. I know that I don't want to live without him because I love him, but letting him in again just gives him the opportunity to destroy me. I know he says he's changed but if Ive been told once I've been told 100 times, Tim is a destructive person. Not purposefully, he's passionate and reckless and while I love that about him it was also our downfall. I'm not blameless, I know. I should've balanced my work life better and I get that, but I can do that now. He must realise that I've grown since then. Look at me, trying to tell myself that theres no way he could've turned himself around but expecting him to see that I have. This whole thing is ridiculous. God I should be worrying about whether Ill look good in my bridesmaids dress no about Tim.
Tim pulls into a park outside the inn and we both just there for a second. "I'm so sorry Faith." He says heavily, tension thick in the air.
"Sorry? What are you sorry for?" I ask confused. He hasn't set a foot wrong.
"For making this weekend stressful for you. Its your brothers wedding, you should be having fun with your family and enjoying it not worrying about me." He sounds defeated.
"Tim please don't." I say. "I'm not worried or stressed." I reassure him. "Of course its a slightly tense situation, I mean its hard to be around you and not be with you. I'm sure you understand that."
"You have no idea." He says sighing and getting out of the truck. What am I supposed to do with information like that? I'm not about to chase after him and ask for an explanation, no. Instead ill just aggressively shut the door and yell at him.
"Whats that supposed to mean!!?" I say slamming the door. He turns around by the inns stairs and looks at me. I walk up to him and stand right in front of his face "you can't say shit like that and walk away expecting me to just act like normal."
"You're the one who said that we shouldn't get into it now, wait till we get home." He reasons.
"I don't care about what I said." I say, I know I'm being unreasonable. Tim looks me in the eye and all of a sudden were kissing. Its not angry, but its definitely passionate. He pulls away a sharply.
"No Faith, we can't." He says and walks inside. He goes up the stairs towards his room so I chase after him.
"Tim Please!" I call after him, quiet enough not to have the inn keeper take notice of us. He unlocks his door and tries to get in, but I stop the door and go in after him.
"Faith I need you to leave, please." He says quietly without turning to face me. i close the door quietly causing him to turn and look at me. "Faith, please."
"Tim I know I said not now. I know I'm being unreasonable but I can't see doing this. I love you Tim. I always have and I always will." I walk over to him and place my hand on his face. I lean up to kiss him slowly and carefully. He places his hand softly on may waist and holds me closely.
He pulls away slowly "I love you too Faith." He says smiling.
"I don't want us to go back to Nashville and pretend this has never happened okay?" I say to him.
"Me neither." He says kissing me again. We kiss more and more and slowly but surely layers of clothes start disappearing. I lead over hi over to the bed knowing full well he won't instigate anything. I lay down and all him over me.
"Faith.." He tries.
"Shut up." I say laughing and kissing him again. And just like were Tim and Faith again.

Tim POV
"That was..." I start.
"Yeah it was.." Finishes Faith as we lay on our backs under the sheet. she rolls over and puts her head on my chest. "I missed this." She sighs as she hods me tightly.
"Me too." I say completely absorbed in her presence.
"We need to figure this out." She says seriously. "Were not doing what we did last time. you're not going to ruin this for yourself, I'm not going to get caught up in myself and we're going to make it work." She says.
"You're so bossy." I joke which causes her to punch me.
"Im serious Tim. I don't think I can live without you." She says sitting up and looking at me. She's so beautiful. The soft afternoon sun is floating through the blinds setting her golden hair on fire. Its all over the place in the best way possible and her face is illuminated. She really is the most beautiful girl in the world.
"And you won't have too. Im serious about this Faith. I love you." Getting to say that to her like this puts the biggest smile on my face.
"You're moving back into our house." She says matter of factly.
"Ummm." I chuckle. Of course I will. "What if I like my apartment?" I say.
"You and I both know that you're not a penthouse kind of guy. And besides I cannot live that close to the city." She says.
"What makes you think you know me so well?" I joke.
"Shut up." She says and leans in to kiss me.
"So are we like back together?" I ask as we pull apart.
"No I just want to live with you and tell you I love you everyday." She's says laughing.
"Right, okay cool. And are we telling people?" I ask as well. "Because I clearly love you a lot and don't care who knows, and if people knew then maybe they wouldn't flirt with you since I'm since I'm so ripped now and will fight them." I joke.
"I don't want to make a big deal. Its Wesley's wedding, if people ask sure tell them but I don't think we should make an announcement." She reasons.
"Right makes sense, and besides they'll all see it in the press soon enough." I laugh.
"Ahh yes the life of the worlds hottest country star. Always in the tabloids." She teases me.
"Hey know Kenny's pretty up there too." I joke. God I'm so in love with her. i can't that after everything she is just willing to forgive me and let me back in.
"Were supposed to be meeting all the other people in a couple of hours for dinner. Apparently theres a football game at the bar tonight that they all wanna go to as well." She says.
"Okay, sounds good."

Wowow! Can you guys believe soul2soul is over. I'm so sad, I thought when it was called the world tour it meant that I might have a chance of seeing them here down under but alas. Here's to hoping either Tim or Faith make their up down here soon!