Fat.

Chapter 58

Olly's P.O.V

The day after Niall had to go do some recording for the new album. When i woke up i found a note telling me

My Love,

im in the recording studios making some new songs with the lads, didn't want to wake you up. Ive never seen anything more beautiful in my life. I fell in love the way you fall asleep, slowly, and then all at once. (Ok yes i love the fault in our stars)

Always yours,

Niall

I have never felt so much happier, Being loved is the best feeling ever. I still can't believe that im with a celebrity. Im with Niall Horan. Im just lucky enough to even got a chance with him. He could be dating a super model and he choose a fat girl from a small town. 

Im lucky enough to expierience love like this. A strong love.

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After a few hours went by i had the house cleaned. My God we need a maid.

I had called Osiris, Seydi, and Tere like an hour ago. Where are these bitches? I had invited Justin, Austin, Cody, Harry, Liam,Louis,and Zayn for dinner. I wanted them to help me make some food.

I hope they come soon i dont even know if i should make cheviche, tacos de lengua, or anything.

Well fuck it ill make some rice and beans, at least to get something started.

I finished the rice and beans and still no girls. Its 4pm and dinner is going to be at 7.

The table was set after i had finished all the food.

I still had an hour left before everyone was supposed to get here.

So i got my towel went up stairs and took a long hot shower.

My muscles were being relaxed from the hot water. My feet are killing me from standing all day.

So I sat down.

I don't know why but, I just started crying. It keep getting worse each second.

I guess it's from all the stress.

I hope they come.

If not I just did all that for nothing.

After the long shower. I got out grabbed my towel, and went to the room. I started getting dressed. Tight jeans and a nice shirt with some flats.

After looking at my self in the mirror I felt disgusted. My God how is Niall in love with me. Look at all my scars. I lifted up my arms and saw all the cuts I had given my self. How can he stand looking at these. How can he touch them and not throw up.

No matter how hard I try to love my self I can't.

I still hear my family

"Your fat."

"Stop eating so much."

"Fucken emo bitch."

"Why don't you loose some weight for once?"

"Your always going to be fat."

"Your to fat to be wearing that."

I'm a mess.

Why me? Great more tears.

and as on cue it starts raining.

I don't wanna be here anymore.

Its already 7:20 and no one is here.

I need to relax and take a walk.

Yeah? that's what I need right now.

I Grabbed the keys to the house and went outside.

Its cold out here. I should have grabbed a jacket. Oh well.

Oh a drink sounds good right about now.

That's it I'm buying drinks.

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Ed's P.O.V

"Harry !"

Fucken Harry hasent left my house all day.

"What!?" He yelled at me from the bedroom.

"I'm going to buy some drinks. Ill be back soon !" I yelled knowing he heard me.

I closed the door and locked it. Never know when someone trust to come inside.

I zipped up my hoodie all the way up, Bloody he'll its Fucken cold out here. My nipples hurt.

Luckily there is a liquor store near by.

I hope Harry goes to that girls dinner. Harry invited me but I don't know.

I ran across the street to get to the liquor store to get the fuck out of this cold.

I walked up to the liquor section and got me and Harry some beers. I was wondering what else I could buy before I heard screaming.

I turned around and it was that girl Harry brought to meet me at my concert.

"I need an ID." The guy behind the cash register said.

"How many times do I have to tell you!? I forgot it!"

"I'm sorry I can't sell you this liquor with out an ID."

"Are you serious? I have money to pay for it all and you keep asking for ID?" She sounded pissed.

Fuck I should help before it gets worse.

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