Depressing One Shots

voluntary apnea

The saddest thing is when you are feeling real down, you look around and realize that there is no shoulder for you.

Sometimes I feel like all I ever do is offer up my shoulder for others to cry on and no one seems to realize that even the people who give you a shoulder to cry on need one sometimes.

I wish someone would notice that I just want to cry but no one would be there to hold me so I don't. And it constantly feels like I'm holding my breath and all I want to do is exhale and let it all out but just like with voluntary apnea which is when you're drowning and you don't inhale until right before you black out. I just feel like I wish I could break down and cry before it's too late and I break completely because I know that day is not one I ever want to experience.