Suho and the sea

Seven

"Wait, y'all are dating?" Kevin asked, raising his eyebrow at me confused, I feel slightly exposed mostly because I'm only wearing a dress crop top, and a pair of thorn jeans as the boys look at me, but also because my dirty laundry is coming out at once. "Yeah, sort of," I say on an out-breath wanting to sink through the sand. And Chanyeol laughs: "Okay, technically, I forced her to go on a date with me; I'm still waiting." He said with a wide grin. "He, on the other hand, saw her naked, so he had to take her out." Chanyeol added, and I blush, really wishing I was in quicksand, "Guys, that sounds so bad." And I can see Junmyeon blush too. And I feel even more exposed.

"Please explain," Kevin said, looking between us, I could tell he was jealous. "Jon, has the room opposite mine, and I was undressing when he came in, I thought I was safe.. but I clearly wasn't." I laugh without heart, and Kevin chuckle, trying to improve his mood as he speaks: "The girls must love this." I shake my head as all the boys look confused: "No, I haven't told them I'm hanging out with them." And Kevin chuckled because he knew exactly why. "Why's that?" Both 'Parker and John' ask me. "Because my friends can't drink or behave at all, and they will be more of a hassle than fun." I say, looking out at the ocean, I don't know when, but I'm sitting in the most defeated position in the sand: "Honestly I don't hang out with them because they never know their limits, when it comes to drinking or when to shut up." Kevin states, which makes me laugh lightly but with some heart. "Well, Min-ah and Misty are better, but Callie." I sigh, and Kevin gives me a very knowing look when I look up at him. I know he hangs out with us because of me and Lee, but I never heard him speak about them like that or think of them like that either, and after he and Min-ah ended their fling, and she moved on to Jinhyun. I never figured he'd say anything out loud.

"What about Y/n?" They ask at the same time, pointing at me: "Y/n, is different." Kevin replies before I say anything. And I don't know why but I blush slightly as my eyes lock with Junmyeon's. And his face changes rapidly. "What are you guys doing out here?" Chanyeol asked: "Well, my ex appeared." I say and look at Kevin; "Oh, so you're her ex?" Junmyeon says and sighs a little too quickly, as Kevin and I both say no. I think Junmyeon looked relieved, and I don't know why. "May I talk to you?" Junmyeon asked and gestured, and I nod, looking at Kevin: "Just keep talking, you two." I smile and walk off with him.

"What's up?" I ask, "Are you going to be okay in that house with your ex?" He asked it took me by surprise, but also not because I had on several occasions, talked about Lee with Junmyeon: "Honestly? no." I admit as I look away: "All of his friends are mine, so at least I have them there to be some sort of buffer."I confess, and he nods; "Let us know, we'd happily let you stay with us." He blurts out. I smile and nod; I'm not going to lie, living with them? I wouldn't mind that: "I might take you up on that." I say and pat his arm gently.

We return to Chanyeol and Kevin, and they both smile at us. "We should probably get back in now... Knowing Jung, it will be dinner soon." Kevin chuckled and wrapped his arm around my shoulder, leading me inside as I waved to the boys, I could feel their eyes on me though.

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I keep dodging Lee's eyes on Kevin and me, Kevin is like a small needy dog who seems to understand that leaving me alone isn't a good option because Lee would try to approach me. Honestly, I don't if Kevin is doing this for himself or for me.

When Lee tries to approach me before dinner, and I shake my head and walk off instead, leaving him standing alone in the hallway. As I accidentally walk past Lauren who's standing on the porch: "It's totally awkward, I don't know why I chose to come." she says when she sees me, Lauren apologizes to her friend on the phone and hangs up: "Hi," I say and she smiles awkwardly and walks off. Why is it awkward for her? I wonder. Maybe she's just as uncomfortable as I am. I feel like most of the house feels it too.

But as I turn, Lee is standing there facing me, I can't dodge him forever, I guess, but he clearly can't take no for an answer: "Hey.." He mumbles. I roll my eyes and cross my arms. "What?" I ask as I look at him: "How are you?" He asks gently, he's testing the waters: "Well, not good now that you're here." I state as I look away, he sighs as he plays with the fold of his T-shirt, something tells me he's trying to find words that will please me, but the words he chooses annoy me instead; "I miss you." I hear Lee say as I turn my attention back to him: "Why?"I ask with a cold tone, I just want to leave this porch or call for Kevin, but it won't help this situation: "I miss what we had, I miss waking up next to you." He says softly as he reaches out and caresses my cheek, he was closer than I expected, not that I was holding out a measuring tape or anything: "What exactly are you saying?" I frown at him.

"I want you back, I feel like an idiot for letting you go in the first place." He says I can tell he's sincere about it, but I'm not buying it. "Yeah, well, you can cut the crap Lee, I know you cheated on me." I state, and I can tell he's surprised by my words, even I am: "What? Why would I? No." He said, waving his hands so I won't doubt his meanings. " I didn't cheat." He says and looks at me earnestly.

"Yeah, I know you did." I say and look away: "No, I didn't," He says: "Lee, cut the crap, I broke up with you because I know you had an affair, I just don't know with whom." I say now annoyed, I know I was right, I could feel it, and he looks so unsure but oddly relieved when I said I didn't know with whom: "I didn't cheat." He insists as I shake my head: "When you went to your 'mothers,' maybe you should at least tell your mother your up to no good.. because when she called me three weeks ago, she hadn't spoken to you since Easter, let alone seen you since Christmas."

Lee looks shocked: "I wouldn't have done it if you hadn't done it first." He blurts out: "Are you saying I cheated on you?" I asked because this is outrageous. "Yeah, after that work event." He says like it justified his behavior. And I get so mad so quickly, that my hand sting against the skin of his cheek; "Don't come here and justify you fucking around, with rape, don't say you miss me and that you want me back, don't you dare." I can hear him say the words rape low as I hurry off into my coed bedroom. Hopefully, no one else listened to what I had said, I did my best to pretend it hadn't happened in the first place, but as I locked my door and immediately started to cry because the memory became so vivid again. Why was he here, why did he think I cheated on him? How did he even find out? Only Misty knows.

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As I wiped my tears I packed my stuff, and I can hear knocks and worried voices from behind the door, and I even hear Lee being all like 'let her be.' I grab my stuff and throw them out of the window after I manage to open it up enough and I climb out to collect my bag. As my feet touch the ground, I hear them finally manage to enter the bedroom, and I head for the backyard before they catch me. As I get into the private yard, I feel my phone buzz, I don't even care enough to check it, and I open the gate to the house next door, as I reach the deck, Chanyeol comes out and looks from my face to my bag and back to my face with a wide grin as he leans against the railing and crosses his arms.

"Junmyeon offered me a place to sleep," I say, and Chanyeol smiled wider if that now is possible.