Only For You

Chapter 42

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" st-stop . . " Pinilit kong ihinto ang paghalik nito sa akin. Pinilit kong itulak ito. .both of my hands are pressed on his chest for me to push him!! I wanted to slap him again. I wanted to stop him from claiming my lips!!

But. . .my body, my mind , they betrayed me. . Imbes na itulak ito, nanatili na lamang nakakampay ang mga kamay ko sa dibdib nito. . Instead of pushing him, i clung on his polo and started kissing him back . .i kissed him back the same way as he's kissing me right now.

Oh how much i missed his kisses. . I missed his warmth. . I missed his lips. .i missed everything about this man!

And then suddenly. , he broke the kiss. .

" tama nga ako . ." Dinig kong sabi nito. His breath's touching my face. I know he's just inches away from me. Ramdam ko ang gaan ng haplos nito sa pisngi ko.. i could his intense stare at me..

Nakapikit pa din ako,pero mabilis ko ng minulat ang mga mata ko . My lips are a bit parted, my breathing's unsteady and my eyes speak of uncertainties. .

At para matakpan ko ang pagkapahiya sa sarili, malakas ko itong tinulak .

" get out of my car Now!! " madiin at pagalit kong sabi.

" talaga?? "

" what?? Oo!"

"Ok . ." Nagtaas pa ito ng kamay na tila sumusuko, .May mga pilyong ngiti ito sa labi, at habang nakatingin ito sa akin, di maiwasang maalala ko ang pinagsaluhan naming halik!! Damn it!! I should be mad at him!! What happened to my im-mad-at-him-as-hell self??? I gathered all the strenght i need to fight the longingness in me , and shout at him once again!

" labas!! " sigaw kong muli. I tried reaching for the door, but it was a wrong move. My body pressed on him, our faces are just inches away!!

And mga mata nito na tila nangungusap ay parang may gustong malaman sa kaibuturan ko. Ang mga kamay kong nanginginig, ang boses ko na tila di ako. Im burning at my own fire! I need him out of my car. I need him out , before my defenses all fall down..

" please , Matt.. get out now.. " pagsusumamo ko..

" sige, pagbibigyan kita ngayon" sagot nito. He opened the door, ngunit di muna ito lumabas, muli ay tiningnan nya ako.. " ngayon lang ito Sarah. . Pero sa susunod, sa ayaw at sa gusto mo, sasama ka sa akin. Pakikingan mo ako. . Then after that, you decide. . "

" your words wont change a thing. It's all useless. "

" then telll me kung anong pwde kong gawin?"

" nothing. . Leave. Disappear. Get lost. Just dont show your face to me ever again. "

Nagtagis ang bagang nito sa narinig mula sa akin. Di ko rin akalain na magiging matapang ako sa mga sandaling to. .

Tuluyan na itong bumaba at lumbas ng kotse ko. Hawak pa din nito ang pintuan kaya di ko pa maisarado ito. He looks like a predator ready to take a kill anytime with the kind of looks he gave me! Nakakatakot. Ngayon ko lang ito nakitang ganito. Seryoso. Galit! .

And why would he get mad at me? Its my choice to not want to talk to him ever?! As if naman may magagawa sya kung yun ang gusto ko!!and besides, ako ang dapat nagagalit at hindi sya!

Pinilit kong hilahin pasarado ang pintuan ng kotse , ngunit di ito natitinag!

" damn it , Matteo!! Umalis ka na nga!! " singhal ko.