Him

chapter 23

I stood there, heartbroken. I was his side bitch? Was I just someone to play with when his girl wasnt around?

My eyes started to sting and I was confused why. I felt water drip on my arm and down my cheeks and I stared, just lost. Ethan looked at me with sadness and shock.

I was crying.

Real tears escaped from my eyes every second and my breathing hitched. My heart ached and I felt like i was dizzy.

" Ana please I c-" he tried to say before i cut him off. " No! Get out! Get out now! You have a whole girlfriend?!?! What!!? You were always there for me! You helped me! I lost my virginity to you! I gave myself to you! How could you! sólo vamos!" (...just go!*) I began to scream as tears streamed down my cheeks and sobs escaped my mouth. My body started to feel heavy and I couldn't handle it anymore.

" Get out Ethan! Now!" I kept screaming I grabbed my phone and threw it against the wall. " Just Leave!" I screamed again and he left. I slid down the wall and hugged my knees and started to cry even more.

How could someone I love so much and give myself to be in a relationship and not even tell me. My heart ached and dropped. I felt like my stomach was being stabbed and twisted with a knife.
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I wasnt aware of how long i sat there, but it was long enough for me to realize  that it was now twilight and the sun was almost completely set. I sat up and went to take a shower. As i passed by my bed I saw Ethans Clothes sitting there. I grabbed them and threw them on the floor. I went Into the utility closet, grabbed bleach and soaked them. Then went to the bathroom and got into the shower.

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I sat there and let the hot water fall over me. I couldnt moved i just sat there. Staring at the bottom of the tub.  I was emotionless,however my feelings are in chaos. I'm filled with anger, heartbreak, confusion, and sadness. I sat there and cried for what seemed like hours. I was thinking and thinking. Why was I so blind.

I thought back to times when Ethan was on the phone. I never realized it  but it all made sense now. He always whispered or walked away, trying to be discrete. I never thought of it as anything, but its all clear now.

My thoughts were interrupted by a knock on my door. " Ana, sweetie, are you alright?" I hesitated. " y-ye-yea dad.." I choked out trying to hide the crack in my voice. " honey, I know something is wrong... Is everything alright? Why is your phone broken? And why are your clothes bleached?" He asked softly but loud enough for me to hear. I hesitated then Began to cry. " Sweetie! Are you okay?" He began to get louder and shocked. I never cried. In 8 years. "Yea dad I'm- I'm f-fine." I cried. He was silent.. and left me be and I was alone again.
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I got out of the shower when the water got cold... I looked at the time and saw 9pm on the clock. 5 hours... 5 hours of me crying and thinking of Ethan. But Why? I knew the exact reason but didnt want to believe it...

That I Anastasia Quinn, is unconditionally and irrevocably in love with Him...

With Ethan Dolan.

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Oh she wasnt in the shower for 5 hours... Just crying for 5 hours .

Yeah bye.