Right Thru Me

Chapter 16

~Nicki's Diary~

Yo, people will love you and support you when it's beneficial

Imma forgive, I won't forget, but Imma dead the issue

Soon as you out the nigga's lives is when they start to miss you

They see you doing good now it's kinda hard to diss you

Niggas be sick when they remember all the bad they wished you

Niggas be mad when they can't come and live lavish with you

But I sped off in a Benzy, I see the envy when I'm causing a frenzy

So I pop pills for them, cop cribs in the Hills on 'em

Pills and potions

We're overdosing

I'm angry but I still love you

Pills and potions

We're overdosing

Can't stand it, but I still love you

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still lo-o-ove, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

I get high off your memory

I get high off your memory

I get high off your memory

In due time, we'll be fine

In due time...

~Nicki~

It's been a month since that day and I was glad to finally be back together with my one true love, Willy Monfret. We talked. We talked it out. We talked about it. We apologized to each other and made up. I stopped drinking and smoking, which made Miley not really want to hang out with me anymore, but I didn't really care. Wayne stopped calling and texting me so I guess he gave up on me. I must admit that I felt bad about that. I'm guessing Paris transferred out of school because not only did I no longer see her at my lunch table, but I no longer saw her anywhere. So that would mean that Trevor, her disgusting twin brother, is gone too. Things are looking up, well finally!

The play was coming along really well! After the day I was absent for getting high, I never missed another rehearsal. I had to lie and tell Ms. Darbus that I was sick that day. The play was actually in two weeks, everyone was super pumped but also nervous.

Willy and I were invited to a party at Wiz's house and it was pretty fun. But, things somehow got out of control and something completely awful and tragic happened. Drake got shot. The bullet pierced his lower back and left him paralyzed from the waist down. He had to use a wheelchair and everything. Everyone at school gave him little gifts and presents. I gave him a get well card and Willy signed it too. On a lighter note, Willy, being his understudy, got to assume the role of Blake in the play which was perfect because now I got bring just a little more emotion to the stage since he was my boyfriend again.

~Willy~

Getting Nicki back into my life was one of the best things that ever happened to me. She told me about how the text saying "I hate you" was because she loved me. And about how not answering my texts or calls was because she was too high to talk to me. And about how reading my super long email made her cry. And about how having sex with Wayne made her feel like the guiltiest person alive. She just really opened up to me. And I opened up to her. We both apologized for our wrongdoing (even though I was the one doing most of the wrong) and we forgave each other. However, she told me that she could never forget the bad things I have done, but she will definitely forgive me and let me back into her life once more. I promised her that I'd never screw anything up ever again. And I meant it.

Opening night for the play was now just one week away from Friday. I get to play Blake since Drake unfortunately lost his legs. Ms. Darbus even let Roman Maraj, or Zolanksi, as he likes to say, to play the part of Symone, Zolancé's evil twin sister despite the fact that he joined the play super late and that she already gave that role to someone else. Roman was way better at playing the part anyway, plus, he's Nicki's twin brother and frankly looks EXACTLY like her since he started wearing wigs. Ms. Darbus even tweaked the script a little bit so that she could include Roman's name as Roman since he was somewhat of a professional actor. She also made it a bit funnier and wittier with the help of her teenaged cast.

I was excited for it all. Nicki even told me about an upcoming movie that Roman will be starring in with Brad Pitt and that Roman's director, Yoshi, is coming to see the play! This might be her big break!