Right Thru Me

Chapter 3

~Nicki~

"So then what?" Candice asked. I could barely hold the phone to my ear.

"Nic....?"

"I broke up with him."

"OMG!!!" she screamed in disbelief. I started to cry some more. I just broke up with Willy. My boyfriend. The guy I'm in love with. I broke up with him. Why do I feel so guilty though? He deserved it! Didn't he? Maybe I overreacted. No. I did what had to be done. But then why am I crying? He should be crying. Right? I doubt that. Why did I just do that? Maybe it's for the best. But...

"Nic....? Do you need some....time to cool down?" Candice asked in a soft, sweet voice. I didn't want to end our conversation because I still felt the need to talk to somebody about my feelings. I don't like to keep stuff bottled up.

"Its just....why would he do that? Yanno? Like he promised me, Candice. He solemnly promised that he wouldn't talk to them again...and its not even that I'm particularly mad about him talking to them its just...he broke a promise. Willy has never broken a promise before. Ever. And I...I de--"

"You deserve better...yeah I get it." I tried my best to choke back more tears but it was no use.

"But...no matter how mad I get at him....I am just so head-over-heels in love with him. I can't let him go. I need him."

"Well you kinda just broke up with him Nic."

"You're supposed to be helping" I said.

"I am...you broke up with him Nic. I know this isn't what you wanna hear but you gotta face the facts sometimes yanno? Maybe its for the best. This ain't permanent I'll tell you that much. But you guys definitely need a break....just....relax. Take a deep breath." I shut my eyes slowly and took a long, deep breath, just as Candice told me to do. I actually felt a little better. I can always count on Candice. She's always there for me. And she's one hundred percent honest. Its hard to find that in a best friend sometimes.

I wiped my tears and threw all my snot-filled tissues into the trash. I put Candice on speaker so that I could fix my hair into a ponytail.

"Thanks girl...like seriously. You're always there for me" I said.

"Don't worry Nic! Candy's gotcha back. Through thick and thin, buhlee dat" she answered. I started to laugh.

"What am I gonna do witchu?"

"Hold on girl, someone's on the other line."

"Okay..."

~Willy~

I was hoping that Candice would answer. I didn't bother calling or texting Nicki because I know that she'd just ignore them. I was just about to hang up but I heard Candice answer the phone.

"Hello?" she said plainly.

"Candice, its Willy."

"Ugh..." she groaned.

"Look, I messed up. I get it. I hurt Nic's feelings. But I'm sorry! You know I'm sorry."

"Yeah...so? What do you want me to do? Nicki made her decision. You guys are broken up" she said harshly.

"Candice, I don't know if you particularly like me, and I know that you're gonna take Nicki's side because you guys are best friends and I'm obviously in the wrong right now, but you gotta hear me out" I pleaded.

"Oh gosh" she sighed, sounding super annoyed with all the drama involved in me and Nicki's relationship. "Willy, I know y'all are like, in love or whatever but in my opinion, take it or leave it, y'all need a break. I can't make y'all be together again so I don't even know why you called me." I listened intently to what she had to say and let it sink in.

"A break" I repeated.

"Yeah, a break. Time to yourselves. Don't worry Will, we all know this ain't permanent!" she said.

"Haha, that's true" I said with an honest chuckle. "Alright Candice."

"Hmph, alright Will. Ttyl" she said. She never ceases to talk the same way she texts.

After our conversation on the phone I sat back and took a deep breathe because believe it or not, I just got done crying before I called her. I should have never went over to Kim and Mariah's table. I don't even think that Nic is solely angry about me talking to them. I think she's more upset because I broke my promise...and I've never broken a promise to her before. Ever. And I'm so mad at myself for doing that. She's probably heartbroken. Promises are really important to her. Especially when someone like me, her boyfriend of almost two years, makes them.

She probably hates me. I hate myself too. I don't blame her. Maybe we do need a break. Maybe its what's best for us right now. Time to ourselves. This isn't permanent. Candice's words echoed in my head. Candice isn't stupid, I'll tell you that much. She kinda reminds me of myself. Smart. Rational. Honest. Truthful. Trustworthy...well...I'm not so trustworthy anymore. That's what Nicki's thinking. That all trust is gone because of this one promise I broke. Ugh.

~Nicki~

It has been a week since the breakup and I've been trying my best to keep my head up. I needed to start getting ready for the school play which was only two months away. Believe it or not that's not a lot of time. Now, drama rehearsal is the only time I can interact with Willy. I see him in the halls and at lunch but we don't talk. We're professional. We can be mature about this. But the question is for how long? Because I know that we're gonna get back together soon. Like, its a given.

Oh and my brother is coming to visit me in a couple weeks! I miss him, we have so much fun together. And I'm sure he has a ton of stories about cute foreign boys even though he shouldn't be gawking at them so much because he has a boyfriend! Roman's boyfriend's name is Marshall and he's nice, but he's scary. And not like Roman-scary. He's a different scary. He lives only one town away too. Whenever Roman comes home from whatever continent he's been in, he spends two weeks with our mom and I, and then two weeks with Marshall before leaving again. That's Roman for ya.

Him being able to travel all around the world makes me a bit jealous to be honest. But that's because he convinced mom into letting him be home-schooled. I should've joined him! But...then I probably wouldn't have been with Willy for as long...

Ugh. There he goes again. No, literally, he just walked past my lunch table, which was a bit more packed than usual. When I took a good look at who (besides Candice and my other close friends) was at my table I became disgusted with who...I mean what...I saw. Mariah and Kim aka The Attention Whore Diva and The Wicked Witch of the Thots.

"Why are you at my table?" I hissed.

"Your table?" Krimlin replied.

"Yeah, I don't see your name anywhere Ms. Maraj....or should I say Minaj?" Mariah added.

"Siri, what the fuck did this bitch just say???" Candice demanded.

"This. Bitch. Just said. Some. Bullshit" her phone replied in its robotic voice. I tried to hold in my giggle.

"Fuck you mean Minaj?" I followed.

"Oh, don't act like you don't know. Willy dumped your ass because he found out you're a lesbian. Or...bisexual, whatever you wanna call yourself" Krimlin said.