The Hardest YOU Hart!

XII CHAPTER: INSIDES AND NARROW MINDS

She did not say anything at all! She just came close to me and held me tight, the way only she knows how. I am sure that now I have talked and let this all go out of my chest, there is not going back. Something must change, even though just a bit, because I have, I have changed in the most beautiful way. This butterfly is not a caterpillar anymore. For the first time in my meaningless life love has found me, even though I was running away from it.

For the first time, I am completely sure of something. I love Nova Waltz! And it is just so confusing and frustrating for me to let me feel like this, to tell myself there is someone in my heart, and is finally the one, I was looking for my whole existence. What would my dad say? What would her very conservative and elitist mom would say? What would Jordan and Jason think about me or her?

"She makes me feel like I am living a teenage dream", like Katy Perry sings in one of her songs. But I sadly know where this is going to, 'The One That Got Away'. Or worse! In my favorite Taylor Swifts quote, a 'Sad, Beautiful Tragic'. Love is hard! Relationships are harder, and people, are the hardest part of the equation I have ever tried to get to know.

You do not choose love! Love chooses you and it makes it in the most unexpected way. It does not matter about age, color, ethnicity, religion, beliefs, gender, background, social status. It just knocks you down, after it has been knocking on your door and you have not listened to it. How do I explain to her about how I feel? How do I explain to myself about all these feelings colliding inside of me?

Greggie started to worry once he saw us awake in the kitchen talking seriously. I really cannot tell you guys the type of expression my face has right now. Nova has told me that she is confused, too. And to be honest with you all, I rather stay away from her from now on, because I do not want to get hurt by her or anyone again.

I am not going to take any risk if I am going to be the only one who is going to suffer. That is why I decided to stay at home tonight. I am not going to Chars birthday bash. Although, I sent her birthday present with Trev and Gregg and tonight I am going to have a retail therapy with lavender and blue roses oils, inside my hot-tube listening to my fave tunes.

I am in the mood to listen a random playlist right now It was exciting to wait for the next song, just to know if its going to be better than the first one. 'Everything Has Changed' just began. Taylor Swift and Ed Sheeran know me well. It is kind of funny, in the most sarcastic way to try to decode all the secrets of life. I mean, life knows you best, but you do not know anything about it, not a bit.

It is very unfair that life takes advantage of you, and you cannot do it at all. Near midnight, I was reading my current book in line, 'Behind the Elizabeth's Death' by one of the most randomly intellectuals in the literature world, Ëlina Ënza, but you guys already know that. I heard some noises in the entrance, so I stood up to make sure it was nothing. I took a baseball bat, just in case and went out of my room.

Gregory was grabbing some ice from the freezer and Trevor was sitting on the couch. He had his palms covering his face

- What happened? Trevor, are you okay? -

- That son of a bitch named Jordan punched him in the face! -

- Wait What?! Why? -

- That bastard is a motherfucking homophobic. He let everybody know about us, so after they found out that is the reason why Trevor left his parents, even the bitch Geneva Waltz asked us to leave. Something about protocol and appearances! -

- Oh, my god! I am so sorry for you guys. I know Geneva can be such a conservative woman, but what she did tonight was bigotry in its most disgusting expression. -

- I cannot believe this! This is the reason why I left this fucking town in the first place, I just returned because I thought people could be different by now, with all of the 'stop bullying', 'stop discrimination', 'be tolerant' bullshit I have heard of and seen these days. -