The Hardest YOU Hart!

XVII CHAPTER: LOST AND SECOND THOUGHTS

My tears were more tears of joy and relief than anything else. I went to bed, trying not to awake Nova, who finally fell asleep after crying a lot. She has a tear on her cheek. I kissed it away, and then I realized this is what I want to do the rest of my life. Going to bed with her, so her face is the last thing I see at night. To wake up with her right next by my side!

To love her, protect her, to kiss away all her pain. Have her as my lover and my ally to do whatever we want, whenever we want to do it. After thinking all this, she turns to my side and hugged me tight. She feels safe with me! The most important thing for me right now is, to let her know she is not alone. She deserves to be loved in the most sublime way.

It feels so overwhelming, in the best way, to have someone next to you, not sleeping on your own anymore. Her warmth is everything I wished for one day, when I was 16, and I lost my mom. I remember I felt so alone and unprotected. I wanted to die so desperately, then spent the rest of my senior year crying every single night.

I looked through a window and saw a shooting star passing by. I closed my eyes so hard, and then I asked for someone, who loves me the way I needed to be loved. I thought it was Jason at first, but now, I met Nova, and she looked at me in the right way that I am sure it is her! Now I do not have any doubt that what were doing is the best for the both of us.

We have wasted so many years with two people who do not appreciate us. We even forgot what real love is about and now that we have found it, we would not let it go. Otherwise, we will be the silliest girls in the entire planet. On the other hand, she means the world to me and that is enough for me to stand up and defend her and our love against anything and anyone who wants to defy it or us.

Now that I can count on my friends and especially, on my dad, I am able to support Nova in every way she allows me to.

THE NIGHT LEFT ME EXHAUSTED and I slept until 8 am next day. When I woke up, I was looking for Nova in the other side of the bed, but she was nowhere to be seen.

I thought she might be in the kitchen or the bathroom, but she was not. She just left a note, hanging on the fridge with a message on it.

"I need to clear things up before making this more serious. I will call you later."

Not even an 'I love you' sentence. What is it all supposed to mean?! I was shocked! This note really impressed me. After taking a swift shower and eating something for breakfast, I took my bike to ride to my favorite place. I needed to clear my head. Did not want to overthink this all! Just wanted to relax and be calmed! Wow, I was missing Gregory so, so much right now.

Whatsoever, I need to try to focus on what is important. If my relationship with Nova must end, I rather it to end now, than later! This would be better for the two of us. Before anything gets more serious, before I can get more into her, before I give her everything. Anyway, I think it is too late for that. I have feelings for her, stronger now than before, stronger than me. They surpass me!

This is too painful for me as it is for her! But I guess we both need to deal with it in the way we are used to. Until we define our situation and our relationship status. I wish I know what is going on with her and her mom. However, I have my dad on our side. Maybe, he could talk to Geneva and make her understand her daughter and I love each other very much, so we can try to make things work if she lets us.

Even though, involving our parents in our very own relationship is not a good idea for a start, or at all!

Geneva is going to involve herself anyway, anyhow. I just hope our love can be strong enough to survive the whole storm. Obviously, if we want to enjoy the rainbow, we must stand under the rain first and foremost. Or even better, we should learn how to dance under the rain. Meantime, it is so refreshing and reenergizing to be here, sitting on the sand, watching the horizon, listening to the waves crashing against the shores.

Ed Sheeran inspires me to love her better now. I am just waiting for her conclusion, if she has concluded something. It is funny how you can pass from do not even think about the rest of your life, to imagine the rest of it with the right person beside your side.

ALMOST 3 IN THE AFTERNOON, and I do not know anything about Nova, I am sort of starting to worry about her already. But I need to stayed calmed. She is going to call me as soon as she finishes talking to her mom. What Charmont will say about this? I bet she is not as narrow-minded as her mother is. I seriously hope so; otherwise, it is going to be rougher than I believe or than we both want it to be.

Near the sunset, a convertible car arrived. Nova and Char came to see me. There were a lot of bags, like someone is going on a trip. The first thought that crosses my mind is she is leaving. Far, far away from me! Thank goodness, it is not that. Geneva kicked her out of her house. She wants to move in with me. And she even dares to ask me if she may live with me. Of course, she can!

She made me the happiest woman on the face of the earth! It is going to be good for the two of us to spend more time together. Especially now that Nova's mom took all her privileges away. Her house, her rules! Some more things like this 'cliché shit' parents tell their children once they have their own opinions about life and how to live it.

This is a big step, but we both are mature enough to face it and make it work. Circumstances force us to make it faster than we imagine. And if this is the course our lives are taking, it is welcomed and we appreciate it.

Char gave me the major support and such warming words to be welcomed into the Waltz family, even though it is just them both. Charmont is another ally to us. And a brand-new sister for me, too! She really understands the situation. She thinks very objectively about the pros and cons this relationship has. She reassures I help Nova to be a happier person also, she wants me to protect her and care about her as she cares about me as well.

She does not even have to ask for it. I know what I have to do. Besides, I am two years older than my girl and I hope those years help me out to be adult enough to play my part well.

My new sister-in-law invited us to eat dinner with her. You know, to celebrate our new life together. And to tell us, she is thinking about retaking her career and finding her independence from her dictatorial mother. This is going to be a huge change for the three of us then.

I never mentioned this before, but Charmont is such a sweetheart with Nova and with me. I am sure I made a friend today, but most of all, I have made another sister as well. I only want to give her all my support, she deserves to be successful. She deserves to be happy as well! She is a brilliant civil engineer, and one of the co-founders of one of her father's construction companies.

I guess this is the circle I need to be inside of, my dad is a great architect so is Nova. Char is a fantastic engineer, so I believe is part of my destiny to be among great minds with innovative ideas about creations, combinations and design. I think they all are going to have a good time together talking about constructing skyscrapers, while I cook for everybody in the kitchen of the house they have built for us.

Oh god! We are so compatible in too many ways. I mean my family and her family. Geneva has influence in the advertisement world, too. And so, I believe she is probably jealous of my work in the East Coast, before, everything else. She only needs to focus on her family a little bit more and appreciate the kind of girls she has as daughters. As far as I know, Mr. Waltz, Novak, moved back to London after they got divorced. Maybe that is why Nova wants to move to Europe, to be near her father.

It is going to be a huge thing to deal with, but as I told my dad, Nova is worth of it and more. Speaking of my dad He is dying to meet the Waltz girls in person. He says he already knows the mother, as he calls Geneva Waltz, but also wants to know the beautiful daughters personally. He is probably flying to California in a couple of weeks or so. I am very excited about it!

But right now, I need to focus on Nova's moving. It must be perfect, well at least it should be decent. So, we need to buy some food and groceries for her first night and probably the rest of the week. Tomorrow I go back to work and I am not going to be able to buy those, or any other day of this week.

AFTER DINNER, Char drove us to the local market. We bought some things for the entire week and went home. Nova was kind of sad, but I would not let her to get depressed or anything like that. She has chosen me and she would not regret that. I promised myself I would support her, love her and take care of her. So, this is what I am going to do from now on. Besides, she has told me I make her stronger. Well, it might be not me but it is just her when I am with her.